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I really lost weight despite not being on a diet THAT strict huh. I really thought I was maintaining my weight at 65kg, but I& #39;m not at 59~61 kg.
But my issue with food is still not allowing me to eat more. Instead, I actually added more micro-restrictions in my diet
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But my issue with food is still not allowing me to eat more. Instead, I actually added more micro-restrictions in my diet
It comes as a shocker because during the last time I went to the gym, which was like a month and a half ago, I was around 65kg. I didn& #39;t measure my weight, not until this weekend.
And there were weeks in between when I hated myself for eating & #39;too much& #39;.
And there were weeks in between when I hated myself for eating & #39;too much& #39;.
And by & #39;eating too much& #39;, I mean I was eating one more slice or bread, or drinking just 1 more cup of milk tea, or eating the skin of the chicken I& #39;m eating. I was even feeling terrible when I would eat two pieces of chicken, which is what I usually eat.
I became too conscious because I didn& #39;t want my tummy to become fat-er. I still do home workouts like 3-4x a week, and I do abs workout each time.
What I& #39;m going through with my food issue right now is nothing compared to what I went through in the past couple of years.
But right now, I& #39;m so torn with my desire to maintain my weight at 65kg, or even at least 63 kg, and not wanting to gain more stomach fat.https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙃" title="Auf den Kopf gestelltes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Auf den Kopf gestelltes Gesicht">
But right now, I& #39;m so torn with my desire to maintain my weight at 65kg, or even at least 63 kg, and not wanting to gain more stomach fat.
Anyway, I& #39;m tweeting these because I have no delivery of my diet meal set today and I& #39;ve been very anxious of what to order for lunch and dinner later. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😬" title="Grimasse schneidendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Grimasse schneidendes Gesicht">
I ordered 2 pcs McDo Chicken and Coke Float. 2 pcs McDo is my & #39;safe order& #39;.
I ate some of the skin, but I spit most of it. I remember how not until late last year, I wouldn& #39;t really eat chicken skin. Sometimes I chew, and then spit (which is what I did today).
I ate some of the skin, but I spit most of it. I remember how not until late last year, I wouldn& #39;t really eat chicken skin. Sometimes I chew, and then spit (which is what I did today).
I also don& #39;t drink soft drinks, but I wanted to try coke float today bec I& #39;m not gonna be able to drink this again due to certain reasons. Wanted to try it one last time. Tho, I won& #39;t probably even drink all of this.
Gave myself a little bit of buffer bec of working out today.
Gave myself a little bit of buffer bec of working out today.
Let me just say this: I don& #39;t do purging. But when I feel like I & #39;overeat& #39;, I feel terrible and loathe myself for it. The only time I don& #39;t feel terrible when I & #39;overeat& #39; is when I dine with my partner.
I keep remembering tho how terrible this was for me before pandemic, because I was very strict on my diet. I was strict on calculating my intake on calories, protein, fat, etc.
I even remeber going out with people but I won& #39;t eat with them.
I even remeber going out with people but I won& #39;t eat with them.
I was so strict because I thought that my stomach was fat. Most especially on late 2019 to early 2020.
And this was my body during that time. I didn& #39;t even realize it back then, but I was skinny.
And this was my body during that time. I didn& #39;t even realize it back then, but I was skinny.
I wanted to lose the very small belly fat and the almost non-existent love handles (referring on the right & #39;love handle& #39;).
It wasn& #39;t until mid last year that I realized that the & #39;curves& #39; weren& #39;t fats but basic human anatomy.
It wasn& #39;t until mid last year that I realized that the & #39;curves& #39; weren& #39;t fats but basic human anatomy.
Also I controlled my food so much because I wasn& #39;t really THAT heavy on cardio. The most I did was doing 15 minutes pre-workout and 20 mins post-workout cardio on max-walk soeed and max-inclination.
Probably, I was very strict on myself that time because that was the only thing I could control in my life -- my weight. Given how terrible that year was for me in most of the aspects in my life.
This was also my & #39;makalat& #39; phase because I think I needed so much validation from how hard I worked for my body to be like that.
I never wanted to be bulky, what I want is a lean body which is what I have now.
I never wanted to be bulky, what I want is a lean body which is what I have now.
This tweet speaks a lot of volume to what I go through. I mean, I feel happier everytime I workout. And I am definitely more confident that I was.
But my issue with food really developed when I started working out. Tho, it was already budding before. https://twitter.com/sadgirldiet/status/1387059040761663492?s=19">https://twitter.com/sadgirldi...
But my issue with food really developed when I started working out. Tho, it was already budding before. https://twitter.com/sadgirldiet/status/1387059040761663492?s=19">https://twitter.com/sadgirldi...
So food problem update: I had palabok + chicken from Jollibee for dinner. Also had 7/11 milk tea to celebrate a certain progression today. Ngl, I felt guilty for having milk tea again for the 6th day in a row. I also kept checking my tummy which was stressing me.
Anyway ending this thread with a selfie.
I got through my food problems today.
There was a good progression on something I& #39;ve been working on as well.
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I got through my food problems today.
There was a good progression on something I& #39;ve been working on as well.
Tomorrow is another day
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