shuffle played shamoon ismail . feels like im back in the 2020 quarantine . playing ludo all the time . making plans for when the pandemic would end . making tiktoks with my friends . staying up till 7 am on the phone . getting caught by my mom ahahahah . getting my heart broken.

sinking into a deep pit . feeling miserable . developing anxiety . unhealthy coping mechanisms . repeat repeat repeat . getting attached to shitty ppl . miserable once again . finally breaking free . fresh new start . glad it's been better since then . last year fucking sucked .

i mean . i think the pandemic caused this . this year was all about being open to new things . new experiences . keeping an open mind . i travelled too . met new people . good people . bad people . got fucked over too but honestly? it didn't hurt . is this growth? i fkng love it