Sigh. Y'all please don't assume you know someone based on their social media profile or public appearances.

I don't actually like group stuff because of *anxiety*. Discord makes my brain feel like it's on fire. If a group activity is bigger than a handful of people I feel sick.

I'm not pretending to support people for clout and then no-showing in group discussions/activities because it's all a mask or something.

And honestly the fact I got accused of this is kind of mind blowing because most of us are strangers to one another online.

"But Amaya you don't look nervous at all in podcasts or videos"

That's called being trained as a performer since I was 3 years old. It's a projection of a specific kind that serves a specific purpose.

Then I have to decompress and rest for a few DAYS when it's done.

I shouldn't have to explain any of this, but I'm tired of the WEIRD accusations that come in my dms and email. I have a hyper-responsive nervous system, I'm almost always hyper-alert and hyper-vigilant. I am sensitive to stimulus of *any* kind. Looks don't tell the whole story

Lastly, why are you obsessed w me? Why are you watching me so closely & then feel entitled to message me about this mess?

I s2g having a MC as a with a very private night chart is the worst celestial polarity

Makes me want to crawl under a rock forever.