When you're decolonizing, it's so much hurt. When you open your mind to how often you say "you guys" instead of "you people", the negative stereotypes u used to hold & are trying to unlearn, your brain's muscle memory is being rewired IT HURTS. Looking in a mirror is an exercise.
It will be difficult sometimes to look in that mirror and see your "growth" when all you're experiencing within is "do better".
Don't stifle your self-image by taking all this pain all at once bc you'll probably be catching yourself/unlearning DAILY at first. Slow & steady wins.
Don't stifle your self-image by taking all this pain all at once bc you'll probably be catching yourself/unlearning DAILY at first. Slow & steady wins.
It is not an aesthetic bc you are able TO EASILY TELL if someone is actually decolonizing, because in our process we must out ourselves.
Every time I catch myself saying "you guys" I say "I mean, you all" so quick
Helps to remember people are on different timelines with it.
Every time I catch myself saying "you guys" I say "I mean, you all" so quick

This is all to say please don't take on decolonization as your "aesthetic" if you don't know anything about it & aren't open yet to learning. It is not shameful to be "out" until you're ready.
If your commitment isn't there, it is so evident to others in your actions & words.
If your commitment isn't there, it is so evident to others in your actions & words.