What Avengers: Endgame means to me, a thread.

I grew up watching the Tobey Maguire Spider-Man movies on repeat, I didn’t really know of any superheroes outside of Spider-Man, Batman, and Superman.

But in 2011, a movie came out that changed the way I looked at superheroes forever… Captain America: The First Avenger.

Captain America shaped my childhood, I loved the character so much, and tried to be like him. He taught me that no matter what happens, you need to get back up.

My parents then took me back and watched Iron Man (2008) to Thor, and I loved every single one of those movies.

I wanted all my favourite characters to team up so badly, and in 2012 my wish was granted with the film ‘The Avengers’.

I saw that movie in the Drive-In, with my mom and dad when I was around 7 (or 8).

That movie was my favourite film of all time for a while. It truly shaped how I looked at superheroes and comic-books

Flash forward to around 2015, I was 9 at the time and was so excited for Avengers: Age of Ultron! I had kind of fell out with the MCU, don’t get me wrong I still watched the films when they came out, but my passion for the films wasn’t at the high it was when Avengers came out.

I had this app on my iPad that said how many Days/Months/Weeks/Hours until Avengers 2 came out. I was counting down the days, and I was so excited.

Then it came out. And 9 year old Konnor loved it just as much as the first film. My love for the MCU was at an all time high!

I eagerly anticipated Captain America: Civil War, and the sequel to one of my favourite CBMs.. Guardians of the Galaxy 2!

Then, the second trailer for the film came out. And my (second) favourite superhero, Spider-Man, was in it! I was so hyped to see Tom Holland’s portrayal of the character that I grew up with.

After months of waiting, watching trailers and TV spots later, it was finally out, and as you can imagine, I thought it was great.

Spider-Man’s appearance in the film made me so happy watching it, it was my favourite aspect of the film.

I was Team Cap all the way. Captain America as a character meant (and still means) so much to me, he was still my favourite MCU character, then the summer of 2017 rolls around.

I was on the Spider-Man: Homecoming hype-train. And once that film came out, I started to get excited for Thor: Ragnarok..

But then… D23 happened, and there was leaked footage from the new Avengers film! I scoured the internet for it, and eventually found it.

I was so excited for the movie, finally, the Guardians of the Galaxy and The Avengers were finally teaming up!

I counted down the days until it’s release, and uh, 2017-2019 were not great years for me personally. I was bullied pretty relentlessly, plus some other bad things going on.

I needed this movie to be out, and more importantly, I needed it to be good. It came out, and I watched it the night before it released. It was.. amazing. The ending absolutely obliterated me emotionally.

I was so… So… excited for Avengers 4. For months, my friends and I were theorizing what would happen in Avengers 4, and most importantly, what the title would be. I always hoped the title would be Endgame.

but after the Russos said that the subtitle wasn’t a word spoken in Infinity War, I dropped that theory. THEN, in December, it was heavily rumoured that they’d finally release a trailer for Avengers 4.

I had already assumed it was something to do with time travel, because of the set pictures from 2017 of them in their suits from the battle of New York. Then, the trailer finally dropped.

And I watched it SECONDS after it came out. It was just titled “Marvel’s Avengers trailer” I was so excited while watching it, then, the title started to come in focus… I was screaming at that point, then finally.. “Avengers… Endgame”

My hype SKYROCKETED. I watched that trailer practically every day. Around march, things started to get a lot worse for me, at school mainly. The bullying became, even harsher than it ever was.

But I put on a brave face and tried to go to school every day, because that’s what Steve Rogers would do. This hype for me wasn’t just excitement for a movie.. It was a reason to live.

This movie was everything to me. And it wasn’t even out yet. I bought all the LEGO sets, I bought a lot of the merchandise, and I was just so, so excited to see the conclusion to the story that I have grown up alongside.

The day the tickets went on sale my dad got tickets for my family to watch it together on the 25th, at the 10 PM showing.

The night before I went to see it, my mom and I were talking about what we thought would happen. I was convinced that Captain America would die, it wasn’t something I was looking forward to but I was convinced of it.

And the two characters I *knew* wouldn’t die were Black Widow and Iron Man. The other thing I wanted so badly but didn’t expect was Captain America wielding Mjolnir. I had wanted to see that since 2015.

The next day was really hard for me. All of the people bullying me really went extra hard on me that day just to try to make the one day I was looking forward too awful. They tried to spoil the movie for me, and were just cruel. But I didn’t let that ruin my day.

I was so excited. Then at 9:00 PM, I went to the theatre to go see Avengers Endgame.

3 hours and 2 minutes later I was a changed person. It was everything I wanted it to be and more. I still remember my reaction when Cap caught Mjolnir. I stood up in my seat and yelled “FUCK YEAH!”. It was the best theatre experience of my life.

The ending left me in tears, it was the perfect sendoff to my favourite character. I went home, and went to bed, a happier person than when I woke up.

The feeling after the film came out, the pure joy, kept me going until the school year ended. A few days ago I rewatched the film, and it still hits me the same way. Every time I watch the moment when Captain America says “Avengers Assemble”.. I cry. It means everything to me.

This was a very long thread, so I appreciate anyone who actually read it, for reading it. I’d like to thank @JamesGunn @Russo_Brothers @ChrisEvans and @MarvelStudios @MarkRuffalo @RobertDowneyJr and more for this amazing film.