THIS IS ONE OF MY BEST DAYS AGAIN https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Nachdenkliches Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nachdenkliches Gesicht"> AND IT& #39;S NOT EVEN THE BEST OF THE BEST AMONG THE BEST DAYS I HAD WHICH ALL BEGAN THIS YEAR :& #39;(: HAHSHAS I NEVER HAVE TO DESPERATELY COUNT MY HAPPY DAYS AGAIN WHICH AMOUNT TO LESS THAN MY FINGERS HAHSHAHS I ALSO ALMOST WORE THE EXACT OUTFIT I https://twitter.com/trishaistrying/status/1152223285767106560">https://twitter.com/trishaist...

HAD THEN AND I JUST REALIZED IT STEPS AWAY FROM OUR HOUSE WHEN I CAME HOME. + i reject & take back what i said about my ex & i in this thread because she actually invalidated my feelings and effort on that day https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😒" title="Unerfreutes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Unerfreutes Gesicht"> i just don& #39;t want her effect on me to ruin such beautiful day https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤧" title="Niesendes Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Niesendes Gesicht">

i guess what i said about us then would just be a reflection of my resilience and survival through such tough moments in my life hahshahahs i need to feel everything i suppressed before i could get over this and before i could see her again in a kinder light,

which i also want to for myself. + it also just occured to me today how pitiful i was to view my pain tolerance/threshold that way because i was really just euphemizing how tragic it actually was for me to hold in and carry so much weight and pain along with everything i am &

i share with everyone/anyone else. if i could make things better just so i could grow so much without suffering that immensely, i would. but everything already happened, and i survived and still continue to heal from it with so much grace and light that was amplified by

such darkness. and for it, i am proud of myselfhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🥺" title="Pleading face" aria-label="Emoji: Pleading face"> maybe less than anyone who knows much of what i& #39;ve been through & i am still into, but i& #39;ll eventually see & celebrate it for myself huhu im also just grateful & so happy now https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Nachdenkliches Gesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Nachdenkliches Gesicht"> no more words just whole being finallyhappy&openhuhu