I usually don't talk about my personal life since I always feel somewhat uncomfortable when I talk about my problems because I hate it when people worry about me.

I might delete this thread, so whoever read this, thanks. I was reflecting earlier today on how much I screwed up my life

I've said that I'm lazy, which is true, but there are times where I'm just straight up unmotivated. I wouldn't say I'm depressed, sense I don't like comparing myself with someone who actually has depression

It all started when I was 13. I liked this one girl, so I tried to be "edgy" to impress her, but when I started doing that I felt miserable. My grades dropped and I started doing stuff I did stuff I regret now. I never spoke to that girl or ever date her, so great thinking

It continued until I got to high school. I had the mentality "new school, new me" but stuff got worse. if I had mediocre grades in middle school, I had catastrophic grades in high school. It got so bad that I got kicked out of my school. (It's more much more complex than that)

So here I am. I'm doing better in school, but I still get these feelings of "unmotivation" everyone once in a while, but it isn't as bad as it was before. I know this thread has some grammatical errors, but I just wanted to tell you guys why I didn't post clips last week.