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Hey everyone! It& #39;s been rough, mentally and physically. I haven& #39;t drawn in 2 weeks now (does making 3D stuff count as drawing? lol) It& #39;s hard being unemployed and living off of your last bits of money. I& #39;m hoping to manifest a good job that will help me with bills soon! Maybe!
I& #39;m currently trying to make my portfolio better, and yes I have applied for tons of jobs, sadly it& #39;s hard and I never hear from people back... it& #39;s obviously difficult to find a job now because of the pandemic, or my extrovert ass would walk to every department and BEG
Honestly? It& #39;s been hard to feel optimistic about this.. I& #39;ve talked to some amazing friends with great advice, and probably the only thing keeping me moving now is my ego lmao like I know I make cool stuff!! I gotta be hired someday!! please!!
Learning 3D has been a way for me to cope , it feels like learning how to draw all over again, and its been the only thing keeping me afloat. I wish OPT& #39;s given to international students during the pandemic was longer, like a year? You expect us to get full time jobs in a year??
For people who don& #39;t know me, I am a Malaysian student currently going through OPT in the United States, and my main source of income is gone now so I& #39;m going through the waves! I& #39;ve been trying my best, a little sad now I won& #39;t lie about that but I know it& #39;ll get better somehow!
Also, since I am on OPT I am legally not allowed to get jobs that are not art related, I wish I could work down at Walgreens while being unemployed but legally can& #39;t 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤡" title="Clownsgesicht" aria-label="Emoji: Clownsgesicht"> so, all I can do now is get commissions to live by, but its hard, especially when you& #39;re depressed from that
I love learning and I work really hard on the things I do! I& #39;ve been so slow lately because I& #39;ve been so sad and I wanted to share this into the world so maybe someone else who& #39;s sad can also feel maybe,.. less alone maybe? It& #39;s hard and it& #39;s okay to be sad sometimes.
I usually get work done really fast, but honestly how do you force yourself to reply to emails, and work when all you can think about is how you& #39;re unemployed, sad and depressed? It& #39;s hard but I& #39;m forcing myself to slowly get to all the emails I& #39;ve missed and haven& #39;t got back to.
I& #39;m hoping to score a big job by the mid of this year, maybe!! If things don& #39;t go well around the end of this year, then I might have to go to other routes. One of them, was that I get my masters to teach! I really wanna teach aspiring artists how to dive into their potential!!
I think we need more POC people in schools, and more queer spaces too. I know that the art school is such a scam, and would rather have more diverse people to offer their insights and make art school better, especially with their resources. Idk, it& #39;s just me thinking out loud!!
I& #39;ll probably put out a work call post or something when I feel better! Hopefully, things will get better soon someway somehow. I pray that I can qrt this thread with a big "I GOT A JOB" and it& #39;s something I know I can enjoy! Manifesting this employed energy!! Ty for your time!https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💖" title="Funkelndes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Funkelndes Herz">
