sometimes I can't help but feel guilty maybe if I called more or talked to him more he at least wouldn't have felt alone or abandoned.
they said he wasn't as harmful that last week. that he seemed sorry, and not the abuser me and my siblings knew. which just makes me feel worse for not being there tbh
he was emotionally and physically abusive towards us. but I still feel awful for not trying harder if that makes sense. idk it's just an awful way for anyone to go honestly
I'm doing a bunch of paper work lmao and ig it's affecting more than I thought it would and twitter has just become my outlet since I don't want to really talk about it w/ anyone (especially my therapist) loll.