Tbh as someone who got called ugly and bullied even if I had a fresh cut or brand new clothes it affected me pretty badly in the long run no matter what I don’t find myself attractive like AT ALL and it really sucks to grow up without confidence in yourself :/

For reference I was bullied/harassed by kids since the 2nd grade for being tall (I’m 6’5 now but was always tall for my age) and picked on for every individual thing I did, I wasn’t able to take gym because I always left with injuries from kids intentionally trying to hurt me

I got a concussion in the 3rd grade when a girl kicked me in the back of the head because I lost the class game and we didn’t get points from then on during gym I hung out in the principle office and had to eat lunch there too until I had to transfer for my own safety

Idk why I’m talking about this but to this day it really bothers me how I was treated for most of my school life even in high school, I developed crippling social anxiety and if I was late to class I would just skip it fearing getting called out by the teachers and class

Gonna delete this thread later but just wanted to kinda vent about how things were for me