i’ve been dealing with the possibility that i might be a narcissist and i mainly the signs point to it being true bc of this one premise.
is it narcissistic to believe everyone deserves love and kindness, and thus believe that i deserve love and kindness too?

because i don’t know if it’s because i believe that bleeds into thinking that i should be treated with kindness because everyone should be treated with kindness. but i guess that can’t possibly happen since there’s bad people out there but i believe that i deserve kindness.

but i believe that bad people shouldn’t be given kindness especially if they’re being bad to someone. but what if i’m being bad and i still believe that i deserve kindness? is that where the narcissism lies? how can i tell if i’m being bad and know then i shouldn’t have kindness?

i’m scared to be honest. i feel like everything i say and do is manipulative, like this thread is manipulative too because it’ll make people feel bad for me. i don’t want to influence anyone. that’s manipulative and i’m hurting people because i might be doing something bad