Childless for 24 hours and I have never been more excited to take an edible and... clean the house.

So far I put away exactly 3 dishes.

Suddenly decided that in order to clean, I need to listen to my mixtapes from the 00’s. I have a CD player and receiver in storage. Obviously this will also lead to rearranging the living room.

Before you ask: @JohnnyTsunami_ makes them lol.

Texting while driving is bad, but kids today will never understand the multitasking involved in finding the right mp3 playlist + following a print out from Mapquest at the same damn time.

One thing about me, I’ma be straight if we ever lose the internet. I got all the important music.

Organizing my cd collection in 2021. Obviously. (Vacuumed 1/2 a room. )

I’m floating. Tonight is crazy because it’s like 19 year old me dj’d a set for 39 year old me, on the exact night I had time to enjoy it. You can’t pay for this kind of therapy lol.

The night is young.

I can’t wait to do some reels/recipes this week off a throwback playlist.

I know I’m gonna end up in the kitchen tonight. After I clean it.

I’m in 2001. Remembering my friend. The first of many Scorpios who caught me up lmao. He was my music person. He’d go to Best Buy every Tuesday & I always had a new mix CD...prob Napster? We’d smoke all night and listen to music, at 19 that was enough to be in love lol.

I would give anything to be able to call him right now, but I feel like he’s been here with me lately as I have been going through this shit, just like he was back then. Not sad at all, I’m really happy I found all our music.

You couldn’t tell me I wasn’t Gangsta Boo in 2001.

I haven’t cleaned anything. I have dinner guests tomorrow. Oh well.

I just had the craziest breakthrough.

I need to decide how much I want to share lol. But it was wild... like a whole therapy session in 10 minutes.

This has nothing to do with my breakthrough. I’ll come back to it lol.

I’m currently in 1998, El Paso, TX.

I think I have to end my journey tonight with r&b. You’re not real if you didn’t have a cd for every mood. I was so damn dramatic.

Back to the breakthrough that happened earlier... I found this recording my aunt sent me a few months ago. Got super emotional unexpectedly. I was in 1982.

I edited parts out I didn’t feel comfortable sharing. Had a moment where a voice did end up triggering something. But this part...the tapping noise, I think maybe she was patting my back? All of a sudden it’s like I vocalized all of these things I needed to tell my myself.

Anyway ...somehow I came full circle on a couple other things I had been working on in therapy. It was like I got to go back and give my inner child a little extra love. I am good now. I’m eating oatmeal and about to go to bed. This is 39.