I just came to this realization last night that what I'm most passionate about in life is advocating for equal rights, & streaming is a great platform for doing that.

With that logic - and wanting to fundraise - streaming gaming comes second to important conversations.

[1/?] https://twitter.com/KlausMaeThomas/status/1385527589620551681

Don't get me wrong, I'm still passionate about video-editing too, and creativity is one of my driving forces - but I'm just tired & don't even care anymore about making video-editing my all or nothing. So streaming video-editing is pointless with that logic too.

[2/?]

Like cool! If you want to hire me, great - I'm happy to do it; but I'm tired of revolving my entire self-worth around something that, in the grand scheme of things, doesn't even matter.

What does matter, is advocating for equal rights.

[3/?]

It's taken doing those first 30 minutes of stream this week, where I just... talk, to realize that my potential & passion lies within those conversations - and not meandering as a "gamer".

I still love gaming, but gaming would just be supplemental to those conversations.

[4/?]

Having those types of conversations, & using streaming in that way is something I've always wanted to do.

What has always held me back in having those conversations, is a lack confidence & un-willingness to be put in a vunerable position.

[5/?]

Having those conversations would transform my stream into something that is grander than just myself - and ultimately, that's what I think is best.

I want it to about more than just my confidence, because equal rights matter.

[6/?]

So all I really need to do in the grand scheme of things, is put myself out there so I can allow myself the space to advocate & have important conversations on a open (& potentially big) platform like Twitch.

With that, will come a change in streaming style.

[7/?]

Ultimately, I think I'm ready to take that step forward - so streaming can be used in a meaningful way.

I want to be vunerable, confident, & I'm just tired of hiding. I'm queer, why the fuck do I feel the need to be so coy about it? Judgement?

[8/?]

Once I take that step forward, I'll be able to make streaming about more than just me.

I want it to be this grander thing where important conversations, and advocating & fundraising can take place - and not be stuck under the ruse of simply "gamer".

[9/?]

With that said, and having used this tread as a way of working things out, there is a lot for me to consider & think about over the weekend...

Changes are coming, & that's exciting and scary - stay tuned.

[10/?]

As one final note, & for lack of a better example - but also totally as an excuse to shout-out someone; follow @heyselenatv!

Their content & passion made me realize my potential in streaming in a meaningful way. I can only strive to emulate (but not copy) what they do!

[11/?]

Time to go all cryptic on main, like "changes are coming".

This is exciting.