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So here it is finally yaaay. Thread explaining my inactivity lately.
So yesterday my parents dropped on me that we aren& #39;t renewing our lease here, and they& #39;re going to be moving out in about 6 months. Which, of course, gives me the lovely reality that I need to get a job. They& #39;re wanting to move into an actual house, and are raising my rent.
Though, the issue lies in the fact that I don& #39;t want to live with them anymore. I& #39;m not about to continue giving them & #39;rent& #39; when they& #39;ve proven that it& #39;s just money I give them so they can buy more weed every month. Never has my money been going to it& #39;s intended cause.
The whole time it& #39;s been right in their pockets for them to use as they please. On top of this, I was constantly being asked for money for & #39;gas& #39; or & #39;food& #39; and would nonstop open commissions, putting myself into a huge queued backlog for them.
None of that money went where they were saying it would go. For two years I& #39;ve been paying rent, I& #39;ve been buying groceries, paying for internet on and off, buying gifts, new housing items, giving money when they needed, just to be told I need to either pay more or move out.
And knowing that they don& #39;t use the money for what they say they will, I want to move out. On top of that, my card is under my dads, registered in my name but still connected to his account since I was 16. Since thats the case, over the years he& #39;s gradually come to
deposit my money into his account when he wanted to. My limit is that this week I had bought a new screen for my phone to be repaired with, and expected that he would attach it and use the money on my card to pay for the service at the place it was to be sent to.
It was only 80 dollars to fix. I went down 90. I ask him where my phone is at today, he says that he hasn& #39;t gotten it fixed yet.
He used my money for whatever he wanted without asking me. Again. For the hundredth time. And I& #39;m at my limit with it.
He used my money for whatever he wanted without asking me. Again. For the hundredth time. And I& #39;m at my limit with it.
Constantly I have had to open commissions because I wake up and my card is in the negatives, leaving me unable to buy food. What makes it worse is that we don& #39;t have a bank for our cardholder in my town, I have to take the bus (using more money I don& #39;t have) to check my balance
Because my dad won& #39;t let me have the login to our account so I can check myself. Because my card is registered under his, my card isn& #39;t recognized as it& #39;s & #39;own& #39;, unfortunately. So calling the bank doesn& #39;t work.
I& #39;m genuinely at my limit putting up with him financially abusing my funds, my mom defending it, and at the end of the day, the ungratefulness they just showed with everything that I& #39;ve done and provided. I watch and parent my brother free of charge.
I didn& #39;t get a job for a solid year because every time I did my mom would say I can& #39;t because her coworker needs someone to & #39;watch her child& #39;. I mentioned this yesterday, and she said it& #39;s true. So how am I supposed to find housing for myself?
I& #39;m trying to order a new SSID as soon as possible, since mine was lost a year or so back and I have to get that sorted out. After that, I& #39;m looking for a place to go that isn& #39;t with them anymore. I am at my actual limit.
I have opened up endless commissions despite having a hard time juggling more than 3 at once for them just for them to tell me I need to either
a : make more money
b : get a & #39;real job& #39;
c : move out
Within six months.
a : make more money
b : get a & #39;real job& #39;
c : move out
Within six months.
I don& #39;t even know if that& #39;s feasible. I don& #39;t even know if I& #39;ll be able to make that on time. I have no clue where my life goes from here. I genuinely do not. I don& #39;t think my SSID will come that soon and I don& #39;t think I can make the amount they& #39;re asking from comms that fast.
Especially every month.
If you can at all donate to my kofi, please do. I& #39;m going to start saving in my PayPal account so that I can only deposit the amounts I need onto my card when I do. https://ko-fi.com/blyssade ">https://ko-fi.com/blyssade&...
If you can at all donate to my kofi, please do. I& #39;m going to start saving in my PayPal account so that I can only deposit the amounts I need onto my card when I do. https://ko-fi.com/blyssade ">https://ko-fi.com/blyssade&...
This will help me secure food, necessities and the like for myself without needing to wait for my parents to buy the groceries once every 2-3 months like they usually do, as well as personal hygiene products, any repairs or the like that I need, etc.
I am still trying to finish commissions but I am putting it here : Do not pressure me about the speed or time. I know that some people have been left waiting, but I am in a very stressful situation in which I don& #39;t have the luxury to work all day and get things done.
I still have to do things around the house to & #39;contribute& #39; or else they can just kick me out whenever. They& #39;ve mentioned doing it before and I am not risking it. Please be understanding. I will genuinely cancel the commission of anyone who isn& #39;t without a refund.
I am not in the mental state to deal with it, nor am I in the state in which I /want/ to deal with that. My home situation is extremely fickle right now, and I& #39;m trying to ensure that I have somewhere to stay. That is my priority before art.
Don& #39;t read this as "I& #39;ll finish when I want", it& #39;s more "I& #39;m trying to finish when I can". I& #39;m sorry it& #39;s like this but I have no control over this situation right now.
Thanks for understanding.
Thanks for understanding.
* Adding here that I am looking for a job btw
