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I just want to vent about some of the things i’ve experienced in the ICU. my current day to day struggles is how much i worry for when it hits 9pm going into 7am.
the worst thing is definitely having a tube in my throat limiting me not being able to speak, eat, or drink. every night i worry im going to get a nurse that’s going to neglect me. that i won’t get to sleep more then an hour because my pain killers aren’t being brought to me
sometimes i press my button so i can get my pain killers and my nurse will tell me i’m going to get those for you and i fall asleep waiting for them and have to ask for them all over again and i’m stuck in excruciating pain because my previous dosage wore off.
I went over a week without using the bathroom so i took a stool pill to help me use the bathroom and for two days nonstop i was using the bathroom on myself warning them i have sensitive skin to please be on top of it when i say i went on myself and needless to say i now have
eczema all over my body due to neglect and half ass rag baths from my front to my back.
then next was one of the worst pains. i’m receiving neck surgeries where my skin isn’t being sewn back up because were continuously go back in for cleanings so i’m getting packed with acrylic. so i had ENT doctors seeing im sleeping at 6am and if they saw i was asleep would just
go in and pull my acrylic and gauze off my skin with ZERO sadation without even telling my nurse who would only need to get my pain killers and prep me. imagine waking up at 6am out of your sleep to what feels like your raw neck skin being pulled off. this happened several times
before one of the nurses who did a great job was furious alongside my best friend and sister and told my other nurses what was going on before something got done. One of them even recommended another doctor to perform a bedside procedure and the doctor himself
started and stopped himself and said “No. i’m not doing this to her, this is going to kill her in pain i think so and so is being very ambitious right now”
this thread is not directed at all nurses and doctors i’ve received. A lot have done a great job at being attentive night AND day and for those employees i am extremely grateful for making this emotionally distraught and painful experience into a slightly more easy one.
Tonight i had finally got some sleep and woke up to the nurses huddled up in the lobby next to my room loud as fuck at 3am which made me so sad because i haven’t had proper sleep in weeks due to the prior neglect and pain i had been feeling.
Right one of my most depressing moments was just now since they woke me up i was extremely dehydrated and told my nurse and she was basically telling me she can’t give me something to drink cause of my tube and i said yes but is there something you can do and she
said she’ll ask the doctor if she can provide me fluids. i have to buzz AGAIN because what did she do.. ignore me and goes back to the lobby and i have to ask her again to do what she should’ve already asked.
Please keep me in your prayers that they remove my tube some time this week so i can become more independent and be one step closer to getting out of here.
