7yrs ago I walked through them doors home fm tour a different person.I didnt know how 2 feel,how the kids wld be.The hubby said wake them & I sat crying uncontrollably holding them (I still feel that gut pain) I laid in bed with so much uncertainty,unable 2 sleep feeling in pain

The strange alone feeling u feel even though home with family. Mentally I was so unsure what 2 feel. I completed tour but the last month was a blur. Offered with being aeromeded home I refused,show no weakness,keep going etc so I was overseen by a physiatrist & my capt

How I stayed I will never know. As time went on life got harder & harder. 7 yrs on & its so good 2 feel & b alive.. #ptsd #anxiety sure does suck, however being in control living in the now,setting boundaries,doing stuff 4 u,living life,laughing & nature is 4 me. #trynotgiveup