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i love how much lan zhan feels. I love him. He is just a great big ball of emotions and he doesn& #39;t let anyone but his brother and his wei ying see them. He is reliable and kind and smart and takes no shit and petty and funny and pretty and strong and caring and patient and bitchy
AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE IS MY FAVORITE CHARACTER EVER.
God and he is so aware of everything around him and he& #39;s gentle and graceful and mindful and he puts everything into all his actions and he only says what he means and his ears get blushy and he can& #39;t tolerate spice and he loves bunnies and he tried to save wei ying but didn& #39;t
Enforce anything because he is fundamentally incapable of being his father. And he honors his mother by letting the one he loves be free and he honors his love by upholding their promise and he raised their son to be gentle and unhurt and strong
and he made a song for wei ying and sang it to him when they thought they were going to die and then he kept its name close to his heart so he wouldn& #39;t make wei ying feel indebted to return his feelings and even when he thought wei ying was making fun of his love in the book
He stayed by his side ANYWAYS and protected him in all the ways he could
And he has his gusu rules that he follows and they bring him comfort and routine in a world that seldom makes sense but he learns that not all of them are meant to be interpreted in certain ways and he always wanted to be GOOD and he IS good with every decision that he makes
with every person he helps and with every action he takes. he is good and he saw that same flame of goodness in wei ying and he LOVED HIM so quickly and so strongly and he held on to it and let it grow into his very bones and he carried it with him
even when wei ying was gone
And he loves his brother to pieces and he was so worried that jgy was hurting him and they& #39;ve always relied on each other bc they were all they had for so long apart from their uncle. and as hanguangjun he never flaunted his title he earned it but never took advantage
again, he is GOOD and just wanted to help people and make the world a little better and kept the bunnies safe when wei ying gave them to him. Lan zhan is fertile soil and anything in his care grows, grows, grows with all the love and care he so diligently provides
AND HE IS SUCH A SIMP!!!! HE NAMED HIS LOVE SONG FOR HIS CRUSH AFTER THEM AND KEPT EVERY TOKEN THAT LINKED HIM TO WEI YING HE PRESSED THE FLOWER HE GOT FROM WEI YING AND KEPT IT AS A BOOKMARK i am inconsolable
guys. Im really going through it rn. I know he& #39;s not real but knowing him makes me want to be a better person in so many ways. I want to have his kindness and strength and love and HUMOR and respect. I love him so much
he throws his money around for the juniors and for wei ying bc he wants them to always be comfortable and happy and to NEVER face any of the struggles that his generation underwent, never wants wei ying to be hungry or sleep on a hard slab of rock or not be able to have something
he wants. And and and he is so VAIN hgj my darling u always look so pretty with your hair framing your beautiful face and your sunlight eyes and your pretty accessories and your lacey robes. It& #39;s okay, you deserve to be vain. Wei ying certainly appreciates it (as do we)
The way he refused to back down when questioned over his defense of wei ying. He took those whippings and did not complain, and is not ashamed of his scars. They& #39;re a part of him now, just like his love for wei ying became a part of him
we always talk about how wei ying doesn& #39;t want to burden anyone with his needs or feelings and LZ DOES THE SAME THING!!!?? WE KNOW HOW DEEP HIS EMOTIONS RUN BUT HE WILL NOT LET ANYONE KNOW!! Firstly it& #39;s no one& #39;s business, secondly he doesn& #39;t need anyone to take the weight of
his feelings. He is independent and strong, like we saw in the wen camp arc, did not want to burden wei ying with his leg (also a protective measure against the wens spotting something to target, i know) and he only broke at his absolute lowest, in the xuanwu cave
With no one left there but him and wei ying, thinking they would die. Maybe this was a protective mechanism for him. After he was taken inside from kneeling before the gentian house, did he scream? Cry? Throw a tantrum? Did he feel like he was becoming troublesome to others?
That all he was doing was bothering them and in the end his mom wasn& #39;t coming back no matter what? We don& #39;t know, but it could explain part of his reticence with showing his emotions and sharing his troubles. He learned to suck it up and deal with it alone early on.
Surprise im back. AND HE IS SO BABIE????? LIKE WHEN HES DRUNK? He pout. He wants wei ying next to him. He wants to play. He wants kissies. He CRADLED HIS HAND AGAINST HIS CHEST WHEN WEI YING KISSED IT. DO U UNDERSTAND THE MENTAL TOLL THAT SCENE TOOK ON ME??????
he kNEW that drinking lowered his inhibitions and erased his memory for the night but he DID IT ANYWAYS FOR WEI YING. TO GIVE WEI YING COMPANY. TO MAKE WEI YING SMILE. and when he& #39;s sober. He& #39;s slightly (very) possessive and it& #39;s so cute.
He has wei ying now and he is Not Letting Him Go (unless wy wants to go, ofc) and oh my god the yunmeng date. This simp. WHEN HE THREW THE WOODEN RING OVER WEI YING ON PURPOSE. BC WEI YING IS THE BIGGEST PRIZE OF HIS ENTIRE LIFE.
and there i go crying again. AND DO. NOT. GET ME STARTED. ON THE TREE SCENE. HE CAUGHT WEI YING. WEI YING WAS ALWAYS FALLING OFF CLIFFS WITH ONLY COLD HARD GROUND TO SLAM UP INTO HIS BODY.
NO LONGER! lan zhan and his big warm arms (and tiddies) are now here to catch and cradle wei ying 
https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Rotes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Rotes Herz"> wei ying doesn& #39;t have to meet the ground again. Lan zhan is here here here
and the way he& #39;s physically affectionate and indulgent without reserve with wei ying after guanyin. HE LAUGHED. CANONICALLY. AT A JOKE WEI YING MADE. AFTER THEY CONFESSED. How much more often does he laugh afterwards? WEI YING YOU LUCKY BASTARD
