#askautistic #askadhd do u folks feel like you would like to stop talking bc you don't know how to do it right. Ive lost much more than I've gained from talking. I yearn for the days when people let me 'get away with' strictly non-verbal comm, unlike now when I try(& fail) at/1

masking my discomfort with speaking without being able to disect everything Im saying presently. Like I know I can't do that bc people have always told be thats wrong for me to do but I do it in my head all the time anyway. If I can't do it out load bc they don't want to hear /2

my thoughts and all the process behind them why do I have to be verbal at all. I don't want to put in the effort to be a human being, as I've been trying to do since the first time someone told me I was doing this all wrong. I especially don't want to put in the effort bc I /3

end up being crises and berated for doing it all wrong anyway. Even tho I'm trying to do what they've told me to do from the first time I "messed up" in their eyes. Do I have to force verbal communication onto myself if I've never felt comfortable with how I am capable of /4

communicating verbally? #askautistic #askadhd I'm just trying to find answers bc everytime I bring it up w/ my drs, support system, they always dismiss this need I have to stop talking bc "I'm an adult now" or /5

"this issue can be supressed with medication".
It always feels like their solutions are so that I can go back to being as close to neurotypical as they can get me to act.
But meds, extra support, being more accommodating, etc: it's not gonna help me in the way I need. /6

How come people that love me won't let me go back to being non-verbal if that's what I need? Why don't they take into account how lucky u have to be to get a doctor to take ur symptoms and needs seriously when ur neurodiverse? #askadhd #askautistic /end