I’m going to try to co-create a gratitude exercise with my therapist that isn’t too triggering. I said “at last my chance to create an anti-gratitude exercise!” This could be interesting.
“Feel gratitude if it feels right but if not feel the exact opposite and it’s totally ok”

Note: I’m not anti-gratitude. I’m opposed to the suggestion that we should ever feel pushed to feel it, as I explored here …https://traumaandlawyersmentalhealth.blogspot.com/2020/10/attitudes-about-gratitude.html

I actually express gratitude sincerely and effusively regularly and spontaneously but “you should be grateful” is a sentiment I’m never on board with in the abstract.

It can be gaslighting if not outright abusive. That said, the template exercise my therapist sent me that he did previously for an event was the gentlest I’d seen so we’ve already got a place to start and I’ll add some bells and whistles just for my use

Bells and whistles—feel gratitude if it feels right or say “f*** gratitude” three times. Whatever feels right. Or whatever