// vent

we're moving and we've been in the same house four 6 years. my mom painted the walls a bit ago, and we all switched rooms and stuff, I feel like everything's going too fast even though they were months apart. I don't really want to leave because of all the memories,+

but all of the people in my house have gotten tired of seeing the same place every day. it's overwhelming, and I don't know what to do or who to tell, because I'm very much socially awkward and I feel like sharing my problems bothers people. I find comfort in the+

stains on the hardwood floor and the weird purple residue from a stretchy hand on the ceiling, the stickers on our doors that'll probably be thrown away when we leave.

I don't want to go, and I'm so scared of change, yet I've also grown tired of seeing the same walls every day. I tend to hold onto things, which is why it's so hard for me to let go of things that are unnecessary.+

I just want everything to stay how it was before, it's more comforting knowing everything's going to stay the same. but for things to get better things have to change.

this thread has gone on for way too long, sorry. I'm gonna log off for a few days,

love you guys, take care of yourselves, peace <3