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Reading 4LW
A Thread of my Thoughts
Expect this to be updated sporadically as I’m very slow to read and busy, but I will try to read as fast as I can
Reading 4LW
A Thread of my ThoughtsExpect this to be updated sporadically as I’m very slow to read and busy, but I will try to read as fast as I can
Cas candle is lit. Here we goooooo
“There’s a slightly too long pause from the operator, like she’s judging him for his blabbering or his sexuality or having this bad idea in the first place”
Dean calm down no one is judging you sjsjsjsjshs
Dean calm down no one is judging you sjsjsjsjshs
“I’m straight, yeah,” Dean says.
Oof it’s rough out here. I feel for him
Oof it’s rough out here. I feel for him
“Do you have any idea how sensitive your mouth is, Michael? How many nerve endings there are in your lips?”
OML he’s killing it
OML he’s killing it
“Your feedback is important to us,” James deadpans.
plssss
plssss
“I mean, no, not okay. I mean, it’d be okay—I mean, I guess, maybe, I don’t know, but it’s not—not now.”
How eloquent Dean!
How eloquent Dean!
“He’s a coward and a pervert, but he’s definitely a bisexual one”
Awww he’s figuring himself out. Proud
Awww he’s figuring himself out. Proud
He’s going back to school bc of Bobby and Sam 
that’s so wholesome
that’s so wholesome
Ok but where is my library meet cute 
Does switching subjects every half hour work?
Am I gonna have to reinvent my studying life now?
Am I gonna have to reinvent my studying life now?
Finished ch 1!
I’m intrigued so far. I like the concepts presented. Seems like it’ll be a fun time
I’m intrigued so far. I like the concepts presented. Seems like it’ll be a fun time
“Dude, take the money back or I’m gonna, I don’t know, blow it on a phone sex hotline or something stupid.”
That’s right you will
That’s right you will
“Man, whatever they’re paying you, it ain’t enough.”
Jimmy audibly smiles. “Thank you. If you’d like to leave a comment for my manager, I can forward you.”
The way I already love their banter sm
Jimmy audibly smiles. “Thank you. If you’d like to leave a comment for my manager, I can forward you.”
The way I already love their banter sm
“Dean catches the hot guy looking two more times before he realizes he’s left his giant thermos out on the table. It’s not actually Dean that this caffeine junkie is staring at.”
No he’s def also staring at you dean. Don’t worry bb
No he’s def also staring at you dean. Don’t worry bb
It’s hard when the work is so boring and the hot guy is so hot
Sjsjsjsjsjsj the ideal struggle
Sjsjsjsjsjsj the ideal struggle
Finished ch 2!
I love that they’re study buddies. I need that rom com in my life pls
The way Ik jimmy is also Cas. Pls Im so ready for the conflicting emotions to come
I love that they’re study buddies. I need that rom com in my life pls
The way Ik jimmy is also Cas. Pls Im so ready for the conflicting emotions to come
“Im bi”
He said it! Go dean that’s a big step
He said it! Go dean
that’s a big step
“Am I the first person you’ve told?”
Alone in his bedroom, Dean nods. “Yeah.”
“...Thank you. I’m honored.”
Alone in his bedroom, Dean nods. “Yeah.”
“...Thank you. I’m honored.”
“More of a gay angel.”
I—
I—
I don’t need your help.
God, he needs this guy’s help.
Lmfaooo relatable tho
God, he needs this guy’s help.
Lmfaooo relatable tho
“Dude, I’m calling for phone sex, there should be phone sex.”
Tell him Dean. Get that phone sex
Tell him Dean. Get that phone sex
“So let’s call him… Dean.”
PLEASEEEEEEEE. IM DEAD
PLEASEEEEEEEE. IM DEAD
“But being pointedly ignored is just another way of being noticed.”
Very true, very true. The way they’re using coffee to bargain makes me laugh ppl really are addicted to caffeine
Very true, very true. The way they’re using coffee to bargain makes me laugh
ppl really are addicted to caffeine
It’s the way I got this dm after my tweet on this thread for me
Gender studies.
Pick up the ladies with that?
Not with an LGBT Studies/Queer Theory focus, no.
With a steady hand, Dean reaches over and circles the B in the acronym.
Cas circles the G.
IM SCREAMING I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND ITS ONLY CHAPTER THREEEEEEEE
Pick up the ladies with that?
Not with an LGBT Studies/Queer Theory focus, no.
With a steady hand, Dean reaches over and circles the B in the acronym.
Cas circles the G.
IM SCREAMING I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND ITS ONLY CHAPTER THREEEEEEEE
He needs to come out to more than two people before he asks another guy out, way more.
Ok but he needs to come out to more than one person bc he just came out to the same person twice without knowing it shsjsjsjshsh
Ok but he needs to come out to more than one person bc he just came out to the same person twice without knowing it shsjsjsjshsh
Finished ch 3!
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ALREADY PLSSSSS
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH ALREADY PLSSSSS
I am in fact dying at the start of ch 4. The descriptions I—
Cas reaches across the table and drags the laptop back to himself with the most stupidly exaggerated wink Dean’s ever seen.
He saved him a spot during midterms season pls I’m soft
He saved him a spot during midterms season pls I’m soft
Cas’ smile renews itself, and Dean dares a flirty wink.
Cas ducks his head slightly, but he doesn’t stop smiling. He ends up looking at Dean through his lashes a little, and damn, that’s just as good a look on a dude as it is on a chick.
THEYRE SO CUTE I CANNOT
Cas ducks his head slightly, but he doesn’t stop smiling. He ends up looking at Dean through his lashes a little, and damn, that’s just as good a look on a dude as it is on a chick.
THEYRE SO CUTE I CANNOT
The guy’s not just gay, he’s actually studying gayness.
Sjsjsjsjsjsjsjs HES NOT WRONG
Sjsjsjsjsjsjsjs HES NOT WRONG
Jesus fuck, Dean’s been hitting on a professor.
As he should
As he should
Finished ch 4!
Ahhh all the tension going on. I love it.
That’s going to be all I can read tonight. I’ll update when I get a chance to read more in the next few days
this has been very good so far
Ahhh all the tension going on. I love it.
That’s going to be all I can read tonight. I’ll update when I get a chance to read more in the next few days
this has been very good so far
Also another fun note, my candle is now finished I think!
Planning on getting some new ones later this week. It’s nice to read a fic and have one burning
Planning on getting some new ones later this week. It’s nice to read a fic and have one burning
“I’d promise not to suck as well, but that does happen to be one of my talents.”
Sksksjsjsjsjs THE WAY I ALMOST SPIT OUT MY DRINK
Sksksjsjsjsjs THE WAY I ALMOST SPIT OUT MY DRINK
“Or I could tell you about a man I met recently.”
PUH LEASE. THE WAY THEY BOTH WANNA TALK ABOUT EACH OTHER IS KILLING ME
PUH LEASE. THE WAY THEY BOTH WANNA TALK ABOUT EACH OTHER IS KILLING ME
“My guy is, um. I mean, he’s not my guy, he’s...”
“You want him to be.”
CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING?? IM AHHHHHHHH—
“You want him to be.”
CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING?? IM AHHHHHHHH—
Deans jealous of himself. Ofc
“Very much bisexual”
Pls im so proud. Dean thinks he’s so subtle
Pls im so proud.
Dean thinks he’s so subtle
Some stupid asshole who’s out and unafraid to do what Dean’s too chickenshit to even consider? Fuck that guy.
THIS IS SO FUNNY I CANNOT
THIS IS SO FUNNY I CANNOT
Ok I lit another candle here we go let’s read some more
dean really seems to be struggling with his phone. sir, put it on speaker so you don't have to hold it constantly
“You saying you want to take care of me, Jimbo?” He tries for a taunt, but it comes out stupidly breathless.
“If you’d indulge me,” Jimmy says, sounding faintly hopeful.
that's so cute
“If you’d indulge me,” Jimmy says, sounding faintly hopeful.
that's so cute
Cas silently sighs before indicating the papers and holding both hands beside his head, palms facing inward, the lines of his shaking arms like a cartoon rendition of stress.
Not me acting this out as I read it
Not me acting this out as I read it
Finished ch 5!
They're really starting to like each other and it's adorable. I wonder how long they'll be able to keep this dynamic up
They're really starting to like each other and it's adorable. I wonder how long they'll be able to keep this dynamic up
“Are you comparing me to calling your cable company?”
“In a good way,” Dean promises.
“Such a charmer,” Jimmy deadpans.
“That’s me. Suave as fuck.”
I LOVE THEM
“In a good way,” Dean promises.
“Such a charmer,” Jimmy deadpans.
“That’s me. Suave as fuck.”
I LOVE THEM
These are technically my office hours. You’re allowed to bother me.
oop. bother me too
oop. bother me too
Working in the library is much easier, distractions aside.
Dean eyes him before writing back, You calling me a distraction?
such a cute distraction
Dean eyes him before writing back, You calling me a distraction?
such a cute distraction
If I did, I wouldn’t be single .
they are OUT HERE FLIRTING SO HARD
they are OUT HERE FLIRTING SO HARD
No time. I can only hope to meet someone in my daily life.
relatable and not going well. cas is killing it tho. get that man in the library damn
relatable and not going well. cas is killing it tho. get that man in the library damn
All he has to do is write something like Tomorrow night, take me to Paradise...Thinks about taking him home to his apartment before the guys finish up at the garage below. Thinks about them telling Bobby before Dean can.
They could go to cas' place? there's solutions
They could go to cas' place? there's solutions
Yeah, I don’t have time to date either...Dean passes the notebook back, and though Cas stops frowning, his face still perceptibly falls. Just barely, but it does
MY FACE IS FALLING TOO CAS. COME ON DEAN
MY FACE IS FALLING TOO CAS. COME ON DEAN
Dean breaks out his most flirtatious grin and winks.
Cas, the nerdy fucker, actually blushes
PLEASEEEEEEE. THEY BASICALLY TURN EACH OTHER DOWN AND THEN CONTINUE TO FLIRT EVEN HARDER. IM DYING
Cas, the nerdy fucker, actually blushes
PLEASEEEEEEE. THEY BASICALLY TURN EACH OTHER DOWN AND THEN CONTINUE TO FLIRT EVEN HARDER. IM DYING
Maybe he really can do this bi thing after all.
awww he's getting to be a bit more confident
awww he's getting to be a bit more confident
Finished ch 6!
Dean is really conditioning cas w this coffee hahahaha.
on a dif note, I'm dying. their flirting is SO CUTE I must simply pass away.
also howwww much longer can they keep up just talking in the library. pls they gotta finish work at the same time or something
Dean is really conditioning cas w this coffee hahahaha.
on a dif note, I'm dying. their flirting is SO CUTE I must simply pass away.
also howwww much longer can they keep up just talking in the library. pls they gotta finish work at the same time or something
aaaaaand it's time for me to go to bed once more. I stayed up a little too late reading this when I have my early class tomorrow morning. oops. gonna try to read some more tomorrow between classes tho!
Dean laughs until it hurts, until well past it hurting, and there isn’t even a hint of a smile in Jimmy’s voice, not one single trace of breaking.
The way Cas makes him so happy already
The way Cas makes him so happy already
A——a centaur?
“Certain callers make it worthwhile.”
Cas my heart
Cas my heart
“Whatever you just thought of, that one.”
Yes Cas! Get him to have his fantasy!!
Yes Cas! Get him to have his fantasy!!
It’s the way I read some of this in class for me
There, in dull pencil lines, reads, I don’t drive.
Dean writes, I don’t think we can be friends anymore.
Sjsjsjsjjs Dean ur such a drama queen
Dean writes, I don’t think we can be friends anymore.
Sjsjsjsjjs Dean ur such a drama queen
Finished ch 7!
It has been TWO MONTHS!? The way I need them to find out but I’m guessing I’ve still got quite a few ch until that revelation
It has been TWO MONTHS!? The way I need them to find out but I’m guessing I’ve still got quite a few ch until that revelation
He finishes his last class of the week on Thursday and only then can it be Jimmy time.
2 points here.
1. Why can’t Thurs on spn Twt be jimmy time instead of T&S sadness
2. Why is this me giving myself the reward by reading this fic now that I too am done w classes for the week
2 points here.
1. Why can’t Thurs on spn Twt be jimmy time instead of T&S sadness
2. Why is this me giving myself the reward by reading this fic now that I too am done w classes for the week
That’s not being weird. That’s having taste.
dean dean dean
dean dean dean
“I only picked up because it was you.”
“...Seriously?”
“We had an appointment,” Jimmy says with unmistakable warmth
PLEASE MY HEART
“...Seriously?”
“We had an appointment,” Jimmy says with unmistakable warmth
PLEASE MY HEART
“I haven’t come out to anyone else, just you and this gay guy I know”
AKA you again. The only person he’s come out to is you Cas. Realize you’re v special
AKA you again. The only person he’s come out to is you Cas. Realize you’re v special
Jimmy hums. “Should I be jealous?”
The distraction is obvious, but Dean takes it anyway. “He’s pretty hot, so maybe.”
More being jealous of themselves. Yes
The distraction is obvious, but Dean takes it anyway. “He’s pretty hot, so maybe.”
More being jealous of themselves. Yes
Dean’s gonna die.
Simple as that.
He’s just going to be dead now.
Literally me reading this fic
Simple as that.
He’s just going to be dead now.
Literally me reading this fic
Then he realizes: Cas must think Dean’s out. If some random guy Dean wasn’t close with came out to him, he’d assume the guy was out to everyone.
And great, now he’s closeted about being closeted.
Lmao yup he thinks you’re out
And great, now he’s closeted about being closeted.
Lmao yup he thinks you’re out
Finished ch 8!
Damn things are really moving
Damn things are really moving
He’s emailing him omg. Are we about to be talking on THREE levels
I really gotta try this studying method. Seems good
You inviting me for some private tutoring, professor?
DEAN IS SUCH A FLIRT MY GOD
DEAN IS SUCH A FLIRT MY GOD
Finished ch 9!
They’re so into each other I’m living
They’re so into each other I’m living
“So get this,” Sam says
How in character
How in character
Lololol talking to Crowley. We love to see it
Cas is quitting at the end of December? Ig we got 4 weeks for these dumbasses to realize they’re talking to each other twice
Aaron yessssssssss
“That’s the guy you’re getting over, right?” Aaron says, the words angled at Dean like some kind of reminder.
“Uh. No?” Frowning, Dean puts his phone away. “He’s my study buddy. He’s not—that’s a different guy.”
Actually, Dean, they’re the same guy
“Uh. No?” Frowning, Dean puts his phone away. “He’s my study buddy. He’s not—that’s a different guy.”
Actually, Dean, they’re the same guy
Finished ch 10!
This was a loooong chapter! So much happened. I liked seeing Sam. We’re really getting into it now and I’m excited to see where it goes. Dean seems to eve exploring more which is good. I want to read more, but alas I have to get up early and must stop here
This was a loooong chapter! So much happened. I liked seeing Sam. We’re really getting into it now and I’m excited to see where it goes. Dean seems to eve exploring more which is good. I want to read more, but alas I have to get up early and must stop here
Me realizing the impala doesn’t have seatbelts
Dean socializing is adorable. This was a great idea
If they could be drunk off each other, Dean would have them stay that way forever, no matter the bill.
I just want to hug him
I just want to hug him
Can I rent you for Christmas?
Dean presses a laugh down into a grin. I’m baking anyway. Then, thinking of his promises to Jimmy, Dean adds, You bring the ingredients and I can show you how.
THEYRE GOING TO HANG OUT OUTSIDE OF THE LIBRARY. AHHHHHH. AND JUST WHEN JIMMYS QUITTING
Dean presses a laugh down into a grin. I’m baking anyway. Then, thinking of his promises to Jimmy, Dean adds, You bring the ingredients and I can show you how.
THEYRE GOING TO HANG OUT OUTSIDE OF THE LIBRARY. AHHHHHH. AND JUST WHEN JIMMYS QUITTING
This is what he was missing with Aaron.
Dean is still officially bi as hell.
THEYRE TOUCHING LEGS AND NOT PULLING AWAY. JSJSJSJSJSJSJS. THIS IS SUCH A BIG STEP AND YET SO LITTLE
Dean is still officially bi as hell.
THEYRE TOUCHING LEGS AND NOT PULLING AWAY. JSJSJSJSJSJSJS. THIS IS SUCH A BIG STEP AND YET SO LITTLE
Are we still going to have Fridays?
Plssssss
Plssssss
Cas taps his foot against Dean’s. He presses down on Dean’s toes until Dean looks up from the paper to his eyes.
Very deliberately, his foot still in place, Cas sits up straight and breathes.
Despite himself, Dean follows along.
Cas is so sweet I cannot
Very deliberately, his foot still in place, Cas sits up straight and breathes.
Despite himself, Dean follows along.
Cas is so sweet I cannot
Quick as he can, Dean whips his phone out of his pocket and takes a picture. Cas blinks after and the photo is blurry, but even Cas’ mouth softens when Dean shows him the pic.
PLSSSSSS
PLSSSSSS
You are officially not allowed in any of my classes.
Sjsjsjsjsjs yes bc you wanna get w him Cas
Sjsjsjsjsjs yes bc you wanna get w him Cas
Stop being a brat, Cas writes, and it is a damn good thing there’s this table between them.
Pls Dean connect the dots dummie
Pls Dean connect the dots dummie
Finished ch 11!
They’re this
close to figuring it out. I’m dying. I love these idiots so much
They’re this
close to figuring it out. I’m dying. I love these idiots so much
“What were you dreaming about?”
PLEASE ITS THE LINES FROM THE SHOW IN A DIFFERENT CONTEXT FOR ME
PLEASE ITS THE LINES FROM THE SHOW IN A DIFFERENT CONTEXT FOR ME
The only good part of Dean’s schedule is the Monday afternoon he’d managed to keep open for Cas.
Awwww I’m so glad to see it
Awwww I’m so glad to see it
“I have decided,” James replies. “I’ve decided to make you decide. Now choose.”
Lmfao I’d hate that. I’m so bad at making decisions
Lmfao I’d hate that. I’m so bad at making decisions
“You’re one of my favorite people,” Dean admits
Dean admitting some of his feelings MY HEART
Dean admitting some of his feelings MY HEART
Dean hangs up, but before he unplugs his headset, he kisses the edge of his very hot phone.
HE KISSED HIS PHONE. HE KISSED HIS PHONE. HE KISSED HIS PHONE.
HE KISSED HIS PHONE. HE KISSED HIS PHONE. HE KISSED HIS PHONE.
Finished ch 12!
No library part
but the convo w jimmy was so great. I’m so intensely waiting for them to realize ughh these IDIOTS. Smh
No library part
but the convo w jimmy was so great. I’m so intensely waiting for them to realize ughh these IDIOTS. Smh
“Is the way you talk more important than your friend?” Pamela asks calmly.
No.
Never.
He cares for Cas so much.
No.
Never.
He cares for Cas so much.
Dean throws in another, even more urgent wave before looking away through the windshield, and Cas takes the hint not to wait for him.
DEAN JUST USE YOUR VOICE AND TALK TO HIM. PROBLEMS SOLVED. PLS MY GOD
DEAN JUST USE YOUR VOICE AND TALK TO HIM. PROBLEMS SOLVED. PLS MY GOD
Dean holds on.
He holds on tight.
THEIR FIRST HUG.
He holds on tight.
THEIR FIRST HUG.
They’re dudes who hug now. Just guys being guys. Hugging. One bi, one gay and absurdly attractive. And solid, and warm.
THEYRE HUGGING AGAIN. LOVE
THEYRE HUGGING AGAIN. LOVE
the urge to kiss Cas wells up through Dean’s entire body
DO IT DEAN. KISS HIM
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE
DO IT DEAN. KISS HIM
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE
Finished ch 13!
They’re so cute together. Deans finally dealing w some of his issues, but still has to learn to accept himself more. I’m so proud the journey has been so good thus far
That’s going to be it for tonight as I need to sleep bc it’s late will read more Tom!
They’re so cute together. Deans finally dealing w some of his issues, but still has to learn to accept himself more. I’m so proud
the journey has been so good thus farThat’s going to be it for tonight as I need to sleep bc it’s late
will read more Tom!
“Is your brother involved in the family business?”
“No. But he’s never wanted to be. The guy’s destined for greater things anyway.”
Jimmy hums with the general sounds of listening. “And your uncle no longer speaks to him.”
You tell him Cas
“No. But he’s never wanted to be. The guy’s destined for greater things anyway.”
Jimmy hums with the general sounds of listening. “And your uncle no longer speaks to him.”
You tell him Cas
“Table. Off in the back.”
“In an alcove of shelves,” Jimmy adds, getting it exactly right.
OF COURSE HES GETTING IT RIGHT. YOU SIT THERE TOGETHER EVERY FRIDAY
“In an alcove of shelves,” Jimmy adds, getting it exactly right.
OF COURSE HES GETTING IT RIGHT. YOU SIT THERE TOGETHER EVERY FRIDAY
Nodding, eyes closed, Dean pictures it—and sees Cas looking back down at him. Not the vague concept of Jimmy he usually has floating around in the back of his head. Cas.
S C R E A M I N G ! ! !
S C R E A M I N G ! ! !
...except, no, not Cas. Not all hot dudes in libraries are Cas. Dean can’t seem to stop picturing him, though.
BUT IT IS CAS. HSJSJSJJSSHJSJSHSHS
BUT IT IS CAS. HSJSJSJJSSHJSJSHSHS
The thing, it turns out, is a card.
Happy No More Classes Day!
THIS IS SO CUTE OMG
Happy No More Classes Day!
THIS IS SO CUTE OMG
Cas is into him.
Cas is actually, really, honestly into him.
OF COURSE HE IS
They’re not as slick as they think
Cas is actually, really, honestly into him.
OF COURSE HE IS
They’re not as slick as they think
And then he thinks about Cas swearing off closeted men. He thinks about Jimmy’s reasons for echoing that position.
There are so many signs. Dean says he’s good at math but I’m getting the feeling he isn’t
There are so many signs. Dean says he’s good at math but I’m getting the feeling he isn’t
Cas writes him a couple more notes, and yeah, okay, Dean’s sticking around just to spend time with him. That’s a thing Dean does now. That’s a thing Dean’s done for a while.
Dean you can’t cheat on Cas with Cas
smh connect the dots sir
Dean you can’t cheat on Cas with Cas
smh connect the dots sir
Their setting aside, their studying audience aside, being closeted aside, Dean could have kissed him there and then.
YES he should
YES he should
Finished ch 14!
They’re SO CLOSE to figuring it out. There’s SO MANY SIGNS and SO LITTLE TIME left. I’m deceased. Also they hugged again. I love them
They’re SO CLOSE to figuring it out. There’s SO MANY SIGNS and SO LITTLE TIME left. I’m deceased. Also they hugged again. I love them
Bobby sighs. “Dean, you don’t tell me what I’m doing wrong, then I ain’t gonna do it right.”
You can do it Dean! Talk to Bobby about it
You can do it Dean! Talk to Bobby about it
“I can’t do it,” he tells Bobby. “I can’t be shut up in an office for the rest of my life.”
He’s struggling so much, but he’s doing it. I’m so proud.
He’s struggling so much, but he’s doing it. I’m so proud.
“If you don’t think you can do it, that’s one thing,” Bobby continues over him. “But you not wanting to do it, that’s news to me.”
I love Bobby I’m crying
I love Bobby
I’m crying
A step away from strangling Dean, Bobby throws his hands up in the air. “If you’re in charge, you can hire someone to do the paperwork! Mostly.”
My tears Bobby is saying all the right things
My tears
Bobby is saying all the right things
Exasperated to the bone, Bobby tells him, “I want you to do whatever the hell it is you want to do. What’s the point in me giving you a leg up if I’m throwing you over the wrong fence?”
They don’t smile at each other, in the way that means they do.
“Dean, your love life isn’t a ‘deep dark secret,’ as fascinating as I’m sure it is.”
“His name is Cas,” Dean adds, eyes fixed on Bobby’s face. “My study buddy, he’s… His name is Cas.”
After far too long a pause, Bobby says, “Weird name for a man.”
he came out to Bobby
“His name is Cas,” Dean adds, eyes fixed on Bobby’s face. “My study buddy, he’s… His name is Cas.”
After far too long a pause, Bobby says, “Weird name for a man.”
he came out to Bobby
“Tell me about him?”
Dean telling Cas about himself he likes him so much
Dean telling Cas about himself
he likes him so much
Awww he came out to Sam as well. He’s done so much this chapter I’m so proud 
“How do you ask a guy out?”
Lmaooo asking advice to ask him out.
Lmaooo asking advice to ask him out.
“No, shattering the illusion is probably for the best. I’m an awkward, bookish man with mental health issues.”
The dots Dean. Connect the dots
The dots Dean. Connect the dots
I’m adding this to the thread bc Lisa’s comments are driving me crazy and this meme is me https://twitter.com/eldestdaughterr/status/1386406847599415297
“You’re going to be all right without me,” Jimmy promises. “You’re-”
“No, I know that,” Dean interrupts. “Didn’t think I would be, but here we are.”
I know they’re gonna meet and it’s gonna end great but I’m sad for them
“No, I know that,” Dean interrupts. “Didn’t think I would be, but here we are.”
I know they’re gonna meet and it’s gonna end great but I’m sad for them
It’s official: Cas and Jimmy would get along like long-lost twins.
Dean. DEAN.
Do you want to drive me crazy????
Dean. DEAN.
Do you want to drive me crazy????
“Goodbye,” Jimmy tells him.
“Bye,” Dean echoes, and he hangs up.
but that means they’re gonna meet soon sjsjsjsjsjshs IM DYING
“Bye,” Dean echoes, and he hangs up.
but that means they’re gonna meet soon sjsjsjsjsjshs IM DYING
I didn’t bring any coffee, so you’ll have to let me take you out for a cup.
HES DOING IT. IM SCREAMING HES DOING IT SHSJSJSJSMSJSJZJSHSNSHWBEBZHSJSBSJUSSJBS
HES DOING IT. IM SCREAMING HES DOING IT SHSJSJSJSMSJSJZJSHSNSHWBEBZHSJSBSJUSSJBS
Dean holds out his hand.
THIS IS A CUTE MOVE. GOOD JOB DEAN. CUTE MOVE. IM DYING.
THIS IS A CUTE MOVE. GOOD JOB DEAN. CUTE MOVE. IM DYING.
IM NOT FINSIHED BUT ITS GONNA END W THEM SAYING WORDS AND ITS GONNA BE A CLIFFHANGER IM CALLING IT NOW
He asks, “Where are we going?”
And he does it with Jimmy’s voice.
“Holy fucking shit.”
THEYRE SPEAKING SJENZJEKZUEKWOXJENSODJDOKFSJHSJSIWBZJWJ
And he does it with Jimmy’s voice.
“Holy fucking shit.”
THEYRE SPEAKING SJENZJEKZUEKWOXJENSODJDOKFSJHSJSIWBZJWJ
And in the last voice Dean ever expected to hear again, Cas whispers a single confused, “Michael?”
THE LAST SENTENCE PLS I FUCKING CALLED IT. IMDYING IM DECEASED SKSJSUSKSJSJSBS WORDS ARENT HERE. THEY KNOW THEY KNWO SJSKAKSKEOSKAJUSISISJSMKDKXNFIDOWKSK
THE LAST SENTENCE PLS I FUCKING CALLED IT. IMDYING IM DECEASED SKSJSUSKSJSJSBS WORDS ARENT HERE. THEY KNOW THEY KNWO SJSKAKSKEOSKAJUSISISJSMKDKXNFIDOWKSK
Finished ch 15!
IM DYING. I NEED SEVERAL MOMENTS
IM DYING. I NEED SEVERAL MOMENTS
IM JUST TAKING SOME LAPS AROUND MY APARTMENT FLAILING. THEY DID IT HSHSJSJSJSJSJSHSJSJSHSHSJSJSHSJSJSKSJSJSJSHSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJJSJSJSHSJSJSJJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJAJSJSJSJSJSJSJJSJSJSJSJSKSJSJSJSJJSJSJSJJSHSHSJSJJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJSJDJHSJSJSJSJSJSJSJJSJSJSJSJSS
OK IVE TAKEN LIKE A HALF HOUR TO JUST REPEAT “THEY KNOW” A BILLION TIMES AND WALK AROUND MY APARTMENT. IM GONNA CONTINUE
Dean and Cas talk face-to-face.
THE SUMMARY. IM NOT DONE SCREAMING
THE SUMMARY. IM NOT DONE SCREAMING
“Nope, nope, no—I’m, I gotta—bye.”
OK BUT SAME?????
OK BUT SAME?????
“I swear to god, I didn’t know,” Dean promises in a hurried whisper. “Don’t call the emergency line, I’m leaving, you don’t gotta worry. I’m not stalking you, I’m, I’m gonna go anti-stalk you now, I’ll just-”
ANTI STALK PLSSSS
ANTI STALK PLSSSS
“No, no, it’s okay, I’m gonna go find a rock to crawl under and stay out of your life, it’s cool.”
I feel him I’d be so embarrassed
I feel him I’d be so embarrassed
“Jesus, Cas, you’re supposed to be calling some emergency police thing, not climbing into my car to be kidnapped!”
Lmfao I think that’s a sign he wouldn’t get kidnapped
Lmfao I think that’s a sign he wouldn’t get kidnapped
“I was going to bring it up incrementally,” Cas continues. “I didn’t want to surprise you.”
Pshh he’s not just gonna drop that bombshell and dip? Shocking
Pshh he’s not just gonna drop that bombshell and dip? Shocking
“Dean. Michael. I swear to you, I didn’t know. I’ve barely ever seen you nervous before, let alone...” He doesn’t finish that sentence.
I—— Ahhhhhhhh
I—— Ahhhhhhhh
“I’m not exactly going around reading scholarly articles.”
Cas frowns, eyes narrowing. “Dean, that’s exactly what you’ve been doing for the entire time I’ve known you.”
He is plsss
Cas frowns, eyes narrowing. “Dean, that’s exactly what you’ve been doing for the entire time I’ve known you.”
He is
plsss
“I like you,” Cas says. “Very much.”
MY HEART
MY HEART
Looking Dean full in the face, Cas tells him, “You are the most infuriatingly insecure person I have ever met.”
CAS SPITTING FACTS LMAOOOOOOO. TELL HIM
CAS SPITTING FACTS LMAOOOOOOO. TELL HIM
“I like you.” His face is stupidly open, infuriatingly beautiful. Cas is serious and focused and visibly nervous beyond measure. “I can only assume I’m the gay friend who’s ‘a complete rosebud’ and supposedly out of your league-”
Yes
Yes
“Dean, do you still want to be my good boy?”
YES HE DOES
YES HE DOES
My parents have called. Pls im trying to read hahaha
“Okay, got it, I’m bad for you, I’ll-”
“So is red meat and bacon,” Cas interrupts. “I’m not giving up those either.”
i love Cas so much
“So is red meat and bacon,” Cas interrupts. “I’m not giving up those either.”
i love Cas so much
He unfolds Dean’s carefully written offer of a coffee date and holds it out. “Do you want to take it back?”
“No,” Dean says quietly.
Then stop being an idiot Dean pls. He likes you so much
“No,” Dean says quietly.
Then stop being an idiot Dean pls. He likes you so much
“It cuts out when I know I’m safe.”
he’s SAFE
he’s SAFE
Finally, firmly, Cas says, “I want coffee.”
Me who doesnt even like coffee:
Me who doesnt even like coffee:
“I’m embarrassed, okay?”
“You think I’m not?”
“You think I’m not?”
“I don’t know what’s real.”
Please this reminds me of the hunger games. I’m emotional
Please this reminds me of the hunger games. I’m emotional
“What part of accepting a date and publicly holding your hand means I’m not into you?”
Exactly smh Dean
Exactly smh Dean
They breathe together while the snow falls. Slowly.
WHEW
WHEW
“I’m sure I did a bunch of stuff you need to vent about.”
“You didn’t,” Cas says, looking and sounding as surprised to say it as Dean is to hear it.
they can talk to each other
“You didn’t,” Cas says, looking and sounding as surprised to say it as Dean is to hear it.
they can talk to each other
If that’s what Cas wants, then it’s not gonna work.
Dean can’t go around breaking himself like that anymore.
DEANS FINALLY STANDING UP FOR HIMSELF
Dean can’t go around breaking himself like that anymore.
DEANS FINALLY STANDING UP FOR HIMSELF
“You’d date me,” Dean says, waiting for the contradiction.
Cas looks to the ceiling but manfully refrains from fully rolling his eyes. “I’ve been telling you that for at least half an hour now, yes.”
OML DEAN
Cas looks to the ceiling but manfully refrains from fully rolling his eyes. “I’ve been telling you that for at least half an hour now, yes.”
OML DEAN
Finished ch 16!
That was stressful. It went as well as it could have with everything between them they needed to figure out. I’m excited to see what Sunday brings for them
That was stressful. It went as well as it could have with everything between them they needed to figure out. I’m excited to see what Sunday brings for them
You saying you still want to date me?
Dean he’s made it SO OBVIOUS PLS
Dean he’s made it SO OBVIOUS PLS
Wait no, Dean sends before he can puke. That’s not what I meant , and still processing , and I wanna date the shit out of you, hold on.
FINALLY
FINALLY
You’re certainly welcome to entertain me.
HES GONNA BE THERE SJSKSJSJSJSJSJSHSHSHSHS
HES GONNA BE THERE SJSKSJSJSJSJSJSHSHSHSHS
“For someone so aware of how good-looking he is, Michael is very reluctant to take a compliment.”
Very true hmmm. Also I love Herbert
Very true hmmm. Also I love Herbert
Cas looks at Dean like he’s being an idiot, and that’s way more like it. “Yes,” Cas says plainly, never so much as glancing away. “I got very into it.”
He can hear Jimmy while he reads. He can see Cas in every letter.
THIS IS SO CUTE
THIS IS SO CUTE
I’m gonna pause to eat dinner and finish a show w my roommate and do homework, but I shall continue later tonight!!
“That’s not true,” Cas says.
Idk if this one was purposeful but imma assume it is. Pls I’m dying
Idk if this one was purposeful but imma assume it is. Pls I’m dying
“I’d like to kiss you, at the very least,” Cas states. Plainly. Openly. Directly to Dean’s face.
PLEEEEEEEASE. KISSSSSSSSSSSS
PLEEEEEEEASE. KISSSSSSSSSSSS
Cas watches him earnestly, urgently, like Dean’s the human equivalent of a season finale and Cas is his biggest fan
Good thing this one isn’t terrible
Good thing this one isn’t terrible
“Can I have a hug?” Dean asks for the first time in his adult life. Maybe for the first time in his whole life.
DEAN IS COMFORTING CAS
DEAN IS COMFORTING CAS
Finished ch 17!
They’re finally kind of getting together and it’s so exciting!! Ahhh I can’t wait for them to bake pies. I’m so excited for how adorable that’s gonna be
They’re finally kind of getting together and it’s so exciting!! Ahhh I can’t wait for them to bake pies. I’m so excited for how adorable that’s gonna be
“Dean?” Cas whispers.
“Mm?”
“Can I hold you?”
Dean is finally being held
“Mm?”
“Can I hold you?”
Dean is finally being held
“I’m keeping you,” Cas tells him.
Dean’s face does something absolutely stupid. The biggest dumbass grin of his life.
YES THEYRE SO CUTE
Dean’s face does something absolutely stupid. The biggest dumbass grin of his life.
YES THEYRE SO CUTE
Cas steps forward, not at the coats but toward Dean. Cas’ hand blazes heat through Dean’s layers, burning into his arm, but that’s nothing compared to the heat of his mouth when Dean finally closes that gap.
THEYRE KISSING. FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYY
THEYRE KISSING. FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Is this where that meme is from saying there’s this moment in every romance?? Plssss the context is NOT that and I’m laughing
Finished ch 18!
Ahhh theyre so into each other
I can’t believe I have 1 chapter left! Ik there are sequels and I’ll add those to this thread too haha, but it’s not the saaaaaame. I’m gonna read this one more chapter before I gotta do other stuff and go to sleep
Ahhh theyre so into each other
I can’t believe I have 1 chapter left! Ik there are sequels and I’ll add those to this thread too haha, but it’s not the saaaaaame. I’m gonna read this one more chapter before I gotta do other stuff and go to sleep
“One pie per person, that’s the human-to-dessert ratio.”
That’s a LOT of pie
That’s a LOT of pie
With a hand still damp from washing, Dean pulls Cas in by the hip. He kisses at a frown only to suck in a breath at Cas’ hand splayed across his bare back.
They’re ADORABLE @eldestdaughterr
They’re ADORABLE
@eldestdaughterr
The Novaks are religious, right? And any idiot with even the semblance of fine motor control can make a cross. So he makes the cross, and maybe he fills the rest in by turning the pecans sideways and making them fan out like the cross is shining or some shit.
“We’re all messes. We’re supposed to be. If there’s a single shortcut I could give you, it’s that one.”
That’s very good advice Cas
That’s very good advice Cas
Not the heart-stopping, adorable sight of Cas snuggled down under Dean’s covers.
A D O R A B L E
A D O R A B L E
“Your flight’s tomorrow! You’re not supposed to be here!”
“Neither are you,” Sam shoots back, half-shielding his eyes. “You said the pie thing was at his place. Your car’s not even parked outside.”
SJSKDJSKSJ IM SAM
“Neither are you,” Sam shoots back, half-shielding his eyes. “You said the pie thing was at his place. Your car’s not even parked outside.”
SJSKDJSKSJ IM SAM
Pink, purple, and blue: not exactly Dean’s colors.
PLEASE SAM GOT HIM A BI FLAG. IM GONNA CRY
PLEASE SAM GOT HIM A BI FLAG. IM GONNA CRY
Or can Dean still make the argument for partners and pretend to be a cowboy?
PARTNERS SO HE CAN BE A COWBOY PLSSS DEAN SO WOULD
PARTNERS SO HE CAN BE A COWBOY PLSSS DEAN SO WOULD
Finished ch 19 & thus the main fic!!!
THE END WAS SO CUTE
I’m still adding to this thread when I read the other 3, but it has been so much fun reading this+ tweeting along w it. I’ve enjoyed talking w y’all about it and freaking out. It’s so good! More thoughts in morning
THE END WAS SO CUTE
I’m still adding to this thread when I read the other 3, but it has been so much fun reading this+ tweeting along w it. I’ve enjoyed talking w y’all about it and freaking out. It’s so good! More thoughts in morning
Helloooooo besties. We’re back at it again reading some 4LW centered fic. We’ve got a new candle 
Hoping to read the 3 more fics tonight so let’s get going
Hoping to read the 3 more fics tonight so let’s get going
Part 2 in the “Talk” series
he double checks the date with his knowledge of Cas’ schedule
HELP. HE KNOWS CAS’ SCHEDULE
HELP. HE KNOWS CAS’ SCHEDULE
“I need to take this outside for a minute.”
Cas said “waittttt”
Cas said “waittttt
”
“Please don’t send pictures.”
Lmfaooo. Cas knows he can’t be distracted rn
Lmfaooo. Cas knows he can’t be distracted rn
He runs his hands down over the layers covering his hips, flounces them up and flounces them down.
Deans so happy w his purchase
Deans so happy w his purchase
“I’m in charge tonight.”
Switching it up
Switching it up
Castiel kisses him. Thoroughly. Desperately.
I’m so happy they’re thriving
I’m so happy they’re thriving
“Confidence is a very good look on you.”
Confident Dean FTW
Confident Dean FTW
“Both.”
“Good answer.”
Cas trying to think
“Good answer.”
Cas trying to think
Good person, bad person; that isn’t tonight’s debate. Tonight, the question is hot person, and the answer is very much Dean.
HOT PERSON DEAN SO TRUE
HOT PERSON DEAN SO TRUE
Faux-casual, exactly as nonchalant as he doesn’t feel,
Fake it til you make it
Fake it til you make it
Finished NWP!
I loved confident Dean! It’s great to see him accepting more of himself after watching him struggle so much in 4LW. He’s beginning to take charge and learn about himself
I loved confident Dean! It’s great to see him accepting more of himself after watching him struggle so much in 4LW. He’s beginning to take charge and learn about himself
Part 3 in the “Talk” series - ALA
I hate this, Dean scribbles
In answer, Cas simply reaches over to take Dean’s left hand with his right, presses a kiss against Dean’s knuckles, and then carries on with the editing.
THEYRE ADORABLE. PLS. SETTING HIGH HOPES FOR MY NON-EXISTENT LOVE LIFE
In answer, Cas simply reaches over to take Dean’s left hand with his right, presses a kiss against Dean’s knuckles, and then carries on with the editing.
THEYRE ADORABLE. PLS. SETTING HIGH HOPES FOR MY NON-EXISTENT LOVE LIFE
Dean adds a lot to the end of his sentence.
Cas leans over and pecks him silently on the cheek.
Dean maybe kinda dies inside a little. In a good way.
HELP I LOVE THEM SM
Cas leans over and pecks him silently on the cheek.
Dean maybe kinda dies inside a little. In a good way.
HELP I LOVE THEM SM
Damn, they’re such a couple.
They really are THAT couple. I love them sm I hate them
They really are THAT couple. I love them sm I hate them
Dean looks back, blinking at the too quick passage of time, and yep, that’s the silent timer on Cas’ laptop screen.
I really need to get that invested in studying. It’s been a struggle during finals this week
I really need to get that invested in studying. It’s been a struggle during finals this week
Dean stares.
Dean rereads.
Dean stares at Cas.
Very serious, Cas nods.
Deans shook
Dean rereads.
Dean stares at Cas.
Very serious, Cas nods.
Deans shook
You’ll be the death of me, Cas writes, but he looks at Dean so fondly.
Dean’s a smug bitch
Dean’s a smug bitch
All semester, he’s been doing that thing Cas taught him about one hour, one day, one week: reviewing new information on that paced out schedule to ease it into long-term storage.
More study tips?? Help I don’t have enough time to use this one this semester
More study tips?? Help I don’t have enough time to use this one this semester
And it actually feels pretty great, shouldering a little more of the weight in this relationship.
Dean going to therapy >>>>>>
Dean going to therapy >>>>>>
Those mornings, Cas’ first groggy word of the day is always something like “Dean” or “sweetheart” or an annoyed “no” as Dean tries to get out of bed.
Dean maybe kinda dies inside, how much he enjoys that.
How far we’ve come
Dean maybe kinda dies inside, how much he enjoys that.
How far we’ve come
I realized I made a mistake and replied once to one tweet so you might not see the thread continued, so here’s the rest of this thread: https://twitter.com/explorerofworl1/status/1389804358347415553
Twice* whoops basically I messed up the thread but we’re good now besties
basically I messed up the thread but we’re good now besties
