I still regularly question my gender identity and whatnot bc at this point my autistic brain just doesn& #39;t really compute when it comes to understanding myself at all anymore on like any fronts but it is really nice having people also speak on me neutrally.
I realize my ties to womanhood are purely to Black womanhood and that& #39;s it, so I love when other Black women are calling me "sis" and hyping me and my womanhood up in the ways only other Black women do and I adore that.
I also love the way I express my femininity but I also am very uncomfortable with forced expectations of femininity (which isn& #39;t an abnormal feeling of course)
As my dad& #39;s only "daughter" I now notice as an adult how much, alongside him wanting me to stay a child as parents do, he& #39;s very much the kinda dad who also has his expectations of what a daughter is and what a woman is and how that& #39;s to be expressed
Like it really clicked when I cut my hair off and I realized how bothered he was over it bc my hair was so long before and had been super long when I was a child and he was the one doing my hair. I look way more feminine with hair framing my face.
Of course me telling him I& #39;m happy with my hair short and that it& #39;s easier for me now means he doesn& #39;t press the issue now but it does make me want to continue keeping my hair short for a while.
There& #39;s no real point here. I& #39;m just appreciative of the fact that the people I regularly talk to don& #39;t only refer to me as she/her.
Also I especially love @MizTeeFranklin bc she immediately started calling me her nibling instead of niece on her own accord and it brings my heart joy.