I still regularly question my gender identity and whatnot bc at this point my autistic brain just doesn't really compute when it comes to understanding myself at all anymore on like any fronts but it is really nice having people also speak on me neutrally.

I realize my ties to womanhood are purely to Black womanhood and that's it, so I love when other Black women are calling me "sis" and hyping me and my womanhood up in the ways only other Black women do and I adore that.

I also love the way I express my femininity but I also am very uncomfortable with forced expectations of femininity (which isn't an abnormal feeling of course)

As my dad's only "daughter" I now notice as an adult how much, alongside him wanting me to stay a child as parents do, he's very much the kinda dad who also has his expectations of what a daughter is and what a woman is and how that's to be expressed

Like it really clicked when I cut my hair off and I realized how bothered he was over it bc my hair was so long before and had been super long when I was a child and he was the one doing my hair. I look way more feminine with hair framing my face.

Of course me telling him I'm happy with my hair short and that it's easier for me now means he doesn't press the issue now but it does make me want to continue keeping my hair short for a while.

There's no real point here. I'm just appreciative of the fact that the people I regularly talk to don't only refer to me as she/her.

Also I especially love @MizTeeFranklin bc she immediately started calling me her nibling instead of niece on her own accord and it brings my heart joy.