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4/19) I& #39;m starting this thread because I& #39;m really bad with depressive thoughts but I also don& #39;t want to force anyone to listen to them so uh twitter thread that no one will read let& #39;s go
I& #39;ve been having a legitimately bad time lately. I have a really hard time remembering things. I have to read over the same text multiple times to remember what& #39;s going on, and sometimes even then I forget.
I also keep thinking I see something, but then it turns out I just imagined it. That happens a LOT, I have trouble remembering whether I thought of doing something and actually did so or not
It& #39;s shitty because it makes my writing, my speaking, almost everything very repetitive. But maybe that& #39;s just how I& #39;ve always been.
I& #39;ve slept more than usual today, both in terms of night sleep and naps, but I& #39;m still exhausted. The coffee does not make a dent, it just kind of gets me out of bed and upright and that& #39;s it. Concentration issues, I guess.
Also, I feel like this is all in my head and that I& #39;m just complaining. I feel like I do that a lot. That& #39;s why I made this thread because people are just trying to be nice, and I& #39;m taking advantage of their kindness to feed my insecurities.
I& #39;m really just a pathetic burden on everyone. I need to face that. There& #39;s really, I really don& #39;t understand why people check in with me and ask me if I& #39;m ok because I& #39;m not but that& #39;s all my fault, and people would be better off if they worried less about me
maybe that& #39;s also in my head, maybe people don& #39;t care and they& #39;re just being nice and I& #39;m being annoying by telling them I& #39;m not okay. If that& #39;s the case I don& #39;t even know, why waste your time on me
man I hope this doesn& #39;t clog up other people& #39;s feeds lol
man I hope this doesn& #39;t clog up other people& #39;s feeds lol
anyway back to work. I need to work more because I& #39;m less productive these days and I& #39;m going to be out of commission once I get those braces in
and for the record, I really have come to terms with having braces, it& #39;s not like I& #39;m any more attractive without it and I& #39;ll still be alone no matter what
I can readily admit that I& #39;ve got so many flaws, I just think my teeth are really the least of those worries
I can readily admit that I& #39;ve got so many flaws, I just think my teeth are really the least of those worries
. rant over.
