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[RANT PART 2]
this is just a part 2 of my last rant cuz I didnt want the thread to be so long. Like I said, If I go somewhere then I actually have to get a job. I mean short term wise yea get a job so I can have money to eat and live but I cant do that for the rest of my life +
this is just a part 2 of my last rant cuz I didnt want the thread to be so long. Like I said, If I go somewhere then I actually have to get a job. I mean short term wise yea get a job so I can have money to eat and live but I cant do that for the rest of my life +
+ there has to be bigger goals, something I enjoy that I want to do because im passionate about it. Idk why but in that way I feel pressured. What I want to do is different from what the rest of my family does (for safety reasons I cant go into specifics) its just since I came +
+ here to India 4 years ago and we went to church and I met people. There was an event and I joined a music workshop just for fun but then the church started asking me to sing and I couldn't say no. Its just people associate me with music I guess, even my parents do now. +
+ I never knew what my talent was, the thing that I'm good at that I enjoy doing. For my sister, its art. I guess people that know me might think its music but its not. And in that way I feel pressured. Just because I can carry a tune doesn't mean thats what I should be doing. +
+ I recently talked to my parents and they were upset because I haven't been connecting with my friends and I mean my friends are all connecting with each other cuz they still go to church to practice, and then my dad said I should get involved with the worship team then. +
+ I didnt know what to say. I keep feeling pressured into something that Im not passionate about. It seems odd bcuz for most people, they're usually being pressured into doing things not involving arts. And I know my parents wont force me to do music but +
+ they just keep misunderstanding. I've tried to tell them how I feel, that music Is not something im passionate about, its more of a hobby. It just seems to go in one ear and out the other because they keep wanting me to get involved with things involving music just because im +
+ sort of good at it. I finally figured out something that I want to do. I want to be a writer. I dont know where I would even start but its something i've been good at since I was young. I love creating stories. I want to write novels. Specifically Fiction and Fantasy. +
+ irl im not good with words. More goes on in my mind honestly. I want to take the things in my imagination and turn them into books. It's been a long time since i've read or written anything but I love the feeling of getting lost in a book. +
+ When you get lost in it and you start to imagine and it feels like you're part of it. I want to create stuff that will make others feel like that. That's something that I know isnt easy but I feel passionate about it. It's something I actually want to do. +
+ these are just some things that have been on my mind for a while. I'll end my rant here cuz this thread became wayyy too long im honeslty surprised if anyone actually reads all of this.
