It's raining and cloudy, i want cuddles and having hot coffee and cookies without any worries
I've never really experienced it but i'm craving it so much, not the food itself but the whole experience you know? #edtwt #edtwitter

The thing about my ed is that i just crave experiences

Every time i go out i take advantage of it and skip a meal, instead i REALLY want to go out with a friend and enjoy a big satisfying meal

But i dont have friends nor the mental stability or stomach capacity to eat that

Or just invite somebody over and have cookies just chilling and laughing and enjoying ourselves

Or a cute picnic with homemade meals with a friend group

A night out with spontaneous take out food

Cooking with somebody without being fussy and obsessive in the kitchen and enjoy the meal without judgement

Not having to panic when somebody invites me over for lunch bc god knows what they're gonna cook

Generally eating without worrying about cals
OR
without thinking that i must be mindful and enjoy every bite of it (my old toxic recovery mindset)

Or just enjoying food because it's yummy, it gives me energy and makes my body function well?