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There are a lot of post going on right now about what it means to be Black in America, and the trauma of constantly seeing people that look like you being killed and what its like to carry that. I doubt I'll have anything more insightful than the rest but here we go anyway...
First I want to take a look at what my current escapism looks like. I don't want to think about another black man being shot so instead allow me to turn to:
A hot new show on Amazon...oh wait that's more black pain.
Okay well there's always Marvel!
A hot new show on Amazon...oh wait that's more black pain.
Okay well there's always Marvel!
Which is currently telling the story about how America isn't ready for a black Captain America but attempting to lull the masses into accepting it by having a homicidal white boy take up the mantle...
AND REAL LIFE PEOPLE ARE LIKE HELL YEAH THAT'S OUR CAP!
AND REAL LIFE PEOPLE ARE LIKE HELL YEAH THAT'S OUR CAP!
So then we move to twitch and for like the last few months one insecure small little man is constantly riling people up against a black femme streamer and youtube just fucking shrugs...SPEAKING OF YOUTUBE!
Then we gotta learn that these fucks mute BLM and allow advertisement on
Then we gotta learn that these fucks mute BLM and allow advertisement on
All lives matter. So you know what fuck it lets just see what's on the news and you guessed it another black man shot dead "On accident" and a uniformed black man humiliated and pepper sprayed.
The walls are everywhere, there really isn't room or space to just breath.
The walls are everywhere, there really isn't room or space to just breath.
So you know what fuck it you go on and create, if I can't find media that doesn't remind me constantly that I live in a world where a group of peoples inability to leave me the fuck alone cost me than I'll create my way through it. And so you do...
And then the DMs come. The Nooses, and the Niggers, and all this other vicious hate. You smile through it, you create past it you try and shake it off but eventually it leads you here...typing this fucking post shaking, upset, and tearing up because one thing is certain...
This isn't going to stop. And your bad days get to be a bit worse than your white counterparts because when the rejections and the losses that come with being a creator come you get the added bonus of being called a fat stupid nigger that should kill themselves on top of it.
What about your good days? Well they get to be a bit worse too because you only got what you got because your black! Or you do get an opportunity and then you get to see that you were part of a "Diversity initiative!" Its not the work you do, you will always just be what you are!
And the DMs are full of little reminders incase you forget. What you are in this country is a marketable, disposable, break from the normal.
Its why morons call "Rivals of Waterdeep" the black D&D show and "Critical Role" is just a D&D show. Its why no one flinches
Its why morons call "Rivals of Waterdeep" the black D&D show and "Critical Role" is just a D&D show. Its why no one flinches
When things are all white because that's how its supposed to be. That's why people get upset when you dare suggest that people profiting on shows that are all white are part of the problem. Its why people look at you funny when you say "Diversity Initiatives" are fucking stupid.
Diversity should be Default. You should see the faces of the world in everything you consume so that way maybe it'll be just a LITTLE bit harder for you to ignore another black man shot by the cops! Its easy to ignore now because how many black faces are in the media you consume?
Honestly every black person on earth could have been killed in the New York Friends takes place in and no one would be able to tell We need to be in your stories, you have to learn to start empathizing with us and consuming all white content makes it so much easier to ignore this
This ended up being a bit of a rant, I'm upset obviously. Whatever it doesn't matter.
Before I used to feel a type of way about this but now fuck it. If you want here's my KoFi I'm trying to get a chair. https://ko-fi.com/noirenigma
