I’m feeling MUCH better since Mars separated from that Neptune square. And I came out of it with major realizations.

1) I’ve spent my whole life begging for love. Like a beggar, holding my bowl out.

I don’t have to beg. I am already so loved.

2) I put a lot of energy into feeling my sadness & anxiety. I don’t feel happiness & joy enough.

I spent my weekend being present during happy moments. I savored every kiss. I felt the wind & sun on my skin. I listened to the zebra doves.

I felt the love I already have.

3) I pulled Judgement today. I’ve already changed. My old life & ways are already gone.

These emotions SUCK, but it’s better than emotional constipation.

I got myself a workplace, relationship, & friendships that give me a safe space to cry, feel, & discuss these feelings.

Mars is transiting my 2H, which rules my 7H & 12H. Really tracks w my belief that 2H is more than just money. It’s what we put our time & energy into, what we value.