i thought i was over something that happened a little over a month ago. i was doing good about not letting it get to my head. i thought i healed. then it was brought up in a conversation and i just started bawling. i have not healed. this is the reality of trauma.

the best way to cope with what i went through is to actually talk about it and be open, but my family thought it would be best to basically hide it. i think that’s part of the problem is i haven’t had the opportunity to really talk about it with other people who went through it

i’m very close to atleast talk about it on twitter just to relieve some weight off my chest. i don’t have many irls on here and the people i do, we’re either not close or they don’t run their mouths.

this is something a lot of women go through and is very normalized, but just not for my age and situation i guess and it makes it a lot harder. i get jealous of other people who get to talk about it, but i’m just scared of the response i’ll get back...

anyways, shoutout to the people who actually read this thread. twitter is basically my free therapy session and adhd thought diary at this point.