─ Fighting bpd, ocpd, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts from taking over my body and soul 24 hours a day, seven days a week cukup memenatkan. I can't remember anything about having a rest. But, I'm still alive, safe, and not harming myself walaupun laluan penyembuhan ini sepi.

Ada juga beberapa manusia yang singgah sebentar berkongsi sedikit cahaya dan memberikan aku seekor kunang-kunang sebagai peneman. Still, I'm on my own dalam pengembaraan ini. Tapi, I will never give up because I know that Jannah is my happiest ending.

P/S: I have stopped being happy whenever Ramadan is around the corner since 2013 because God took my father. My mental health is getting worst since then. I still remember the night Allah answered my prayer after I wished my father died. 2021 is my second year without medication.

I am starting to let go of everything and let go(d) dictate my fate before meeting my late abah in Jannah who is waiting somewhere around the Al-Kautsar river.

Alhamdulilah. All praises to Allah for giving me another chance to celebrate Ramadhan.