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I& #39;m not usually one for blocking people, l only have one person blocked and it& #39;s for *very* good reasons, but I& #39;m super duper close to just abandoning that mindset and blocking away because holy shit, what a bunch of assholes
Spoiler alert this thought process was set off by a certain group, but just in general I& #39;m so tired of how many outright nasty people there are, and there& #39;s only so much muting can do.
I don& #39;t know, I& #39;ve always just felt like blocking people was wrong somehow? Is that weird?
I don& #39;t know, I& #39;ve always just felt like blocking people was wrong somehow? Is that weird?
I always feel really scummy when one of them likes or retweets one of my tweets, as if that alone makes me culpable in their delusional war, that barely anyone seriously agrees with that isn& #39;t outrageously sexist and/or racist. But l still feel guilty about the idea of blocking.
I do love how this is vague enough that I& #39;m not referring to any specific group of people, and ergo they can& #39;t get upset with me without acknowledging the fact that they on some level are aware they& #39;re seen this way, when we all know I& #39;m talking about the NMD lot... oops! 
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The moral of this story is l should& #39;ve taken my meds today, and am in a bit of a sour mood this glorious 4:30AM morning. But hey, the fact this is the worst I& #39;ve felt in months, and I& #39;m merely a bit sour and not full-blown depressed, is a pretty damn good sign.
l don& #39;t know if l said this publicly yet, but a while ago when l was worried l might disappear it was because l was suicidal, and l had done a very silly thing indeed. Thankfully it turned out I& #39;d just been having a bad reaction to the meds I& #39;d been taking.
Well okay, it wasn& #39;t "just" that, that was merely the biggest factor. l can& #39;t say right now what one of the other major factors was, but who knows maybe in a week or two things& #39;ll be different, the point is I& #39;m feeling a hell of a lot better now.
I& #39;m on new meds, I& #39;ve made changes in my life that have imporoved my mood to no end, and honestly the past month or two has been amazing, l feel like a new person.
l don& #39;t know where I& #39;m going with this stream of consciousness but I& #39;m enjoying it, dang it!
l don& #39;t know where I& #39;m going with this stream of consciousness but I& #39;m enjoying it, dang it!
I& #39;m usually a pretty anxious person, l don& #39;t like being seen or heard in public, and when l do l have to be incredibly prepared and plan everything out meticulously, but I& #39;ve been overcoming that fear lately and it feels great! This is the most fulfilled I& #39;ve felt in a long time.
I& #39;ll probably delete this thread soonish, not out of embarrassment for the emotion or out of fear of the wrath of the Not My Doctors, but because l *want* to.
