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These days, I‘ve been waking up and choose to love myself. The thought of making myself feel loved makes me so giddy. So, here I am doing this 30 days writing challenge since I got nothing else to do.
P.S. Cringeworthy materials.
Day One • In my opinion, I think I‘m a friendly person. I‘ll always try my best to make people around me feel comfortable and contented. I‘m also the type who won‘t let someone feels left out in a circle. But sometimes, I wish that someone would do the same thing to me too —
— and it can makes me sound insincere, somehow. I‘m brave to say that I‘m the best at making a decent first impression. Although I can be a little awkward whenever I meet new people, I will always have a way to lessen the tense.
In term of myself, I‘m a blunt person whenever I see something that doesn‘t sit right with me, although it takes time for me to be honest because I want to be extra careful. I‘m also a good listener and when I listen to people, I save everything they said in my mind and keep it.
What else.. oh, I think I‘m a romantic person? Actually, I‘m not really sure. It‘s either I‘m a loving person or a mere sweet talker. However, I give the greatest affection and attention toward people around me.
Day Two • I feel happy by little things. But as for these days, taking a rest by spending my whole day in my bedroom and watch something that I like, such as SF9‘s VLIVE and reality shows are my favorite things to do. I also feel happy whenever I banter with both my —
— Twitter friends and irl friends online, since I can‘t go outside due to the pandemic. Imagine being an introvert but loving a social interaction deep down. I‘m also into coffee these days, so having them in the nighttime is also something that makes me happy.
Day Three • I needed a day to think about the good memories I‘ve ever had but I can barely get one into my mind. Thus, the best I could remember was when I could perform, doing what I loved, in front of so many people.
Day Four • I‘d love to visit Europe, especially Switzerland because I‘ve seen a lot of beautiful pictures coming from that place and I‘ve always wondered how good it‘d be if I can live there for at least a month. I‘d also love to visit South Korea again.
Day Five • As for my Father, he is someone who works hard to get what he wants and not only that, he also sets a high standard for himself. He loves challenging things, I suppose. But when he fails, he feels like the world turns their back against him.
However, he doesn‘t like the idea of losing and that‘s why he‘ll always continue to work harder no matter what it takes. I‘m in between wanting to be him or not at all. As for my Mother, I don‘t think I have anything to say here.
Day Six • I don‘t know what in the world does that mean but single and happy sounds a lot like me these days. I‘ve always thought that I need someone beside me to support me everyday but it turns out that I just didn‘t love myself enough. I‘m all good right now.
Day Seven • I‘m not really into movies but if I have to choose my favorite ones, it would be Maze Runner (1, 2, 3), Ready or Not, Hush, Searching, and Disney movies. I‘m between into thriller or animation, I don‘t know anymore.
Day Eight • The power of music.. I don‘t think I can arrange the right words here but for sure, I won‘t be able to live without them and if you‘re wondering, no, I‘m not exaggerating. Music means the world to me and there‘s no day where I don‘t listen to it.
They hurt me the worst way possible but they also heal me the best way possible. Pretty much a love-hate relationship.
Day Nine • Happiness isn‘t something I can describe right on the spot. I have to think about it thoroughly although my answer would be simpler than you thought. For me personally, I‘m the type who can find my happiness in little things; such as receiving affection, —
— attention, praises, as well as reassurances from people around me. But lately, I find happiness literally everywhere that I even think that I‘m a positive freak or something like that. I guess that‘s better than being sad most of the times. 
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Day Ten • I lost my best friends because of some reasons I can‘t tell since it was too stressing. Thus, I don‘t think I have any at the moment. Actually, I don‘t even know what qualifies people to be considered as my best friend since I‘m the type who‘d rather mingle —
— with anyone and in fact, I‘m bad at bringing someone to get close to me. I don‘t know why, but most of people I talk to don‘t consider me as close enough to them jadi ya gue juga bakal mikir begitu. Committing friendship is too complicated.
Day Eleven • If I‘m about to talk about my siblings, I honestly got nothing but to talk shits about them /Hj, but here we go. Starting from my first sibling, they‘re definitely a hard worker. They‘re also the type who don‘t like losing and sometimes it can be too much that —
— they bring other people down on certain occasions. But honestly, it‘s amazing to see them get over things pretty easily such as moving on from someone who hurted them and their pain in the past. Although there must be a lot of obstacles, they‘re living their greatest —
— life right now. They also observe people‘s personalities a lot. As for my second sibling, they‘re really smart, for academic matters but they aren‘t really good at socializing. The words they utter can somehow sound insensitive and aimless. They‘re also emotional. —
— too emotional sometimes that their emotion controls them more than how they control their emotion. Now they‘ve entered college, they gained a lot of nice friends but I hope they don‘t lose their passion for studying and don‘t become too focused on their —
— friends instead. (Sayang banget soalnya)
Day Twelve • My favorite TV series would be nothing but some K-Dramas. Penthouse, The Beauty Inside (2018), and Crash Landing On You. Honestly, those three are the best dramas I‘ve ever watched and I will never dare to rewatch it since it‘s something that —
— I should enjoy only once in a lifetime. I‘d also love to mention Sweet Home as well as Alice in Borderland since the plots are just, [chef‘s kiss].
Day Thirteen • I‘m not into books and when I do, I only read poetry as well as cringy love stories. For me personally, I enjoy Naela Ali‘s series of Stories for Rainy Days. I have both Vol. I and II (haven‘t gotten the chance to buy the III one, sadly).
