This tweet has triggered me. I am weeping. My mom died when I was 16. I wish she was here because the difficulty I'm experiencing now with my family was never going to be. I have taken her place in everything as such my grandfather is now my burden & his own kids care less. 1/4 https://twitter.com/NolwAzi_Tusini/status/1380994477880393729

I have seen family members say the word "shame" to me but never offer a hand to give me relief even if it is just for a day. I have lost my childhood because I had to learn to carry my family (cooking, cleaning, washing ironing etc) for the past 10 years single handedly. I'm 29.

I cry because my gran died last year in her sleep. All My grandparents needed was someone to take care of them. There is nothing more painful than watching my uncle's staying in beautiful houses while their own parents is in tatters. People in their 80s saying alone unattended in

their home until I come back. I'm at work I have to keep calling to check if they are fine. Hearing my grandmother saying "andifuni ukuhlupha mntu." I told myself that God should send me a husband with parents especially a mom. I'll wear my heart on my sleeve for her for my mom

and grandmother's sake. I'll treat them like I wanted people to treat me. Abanye omakoti bakrwada and I'll do everything better than what I have seen first hand from me. I am planning to leave & relocate so that uncle's and wives learn to take care of their father for my sanity.

Kunzima to not have a mother. People treat you like a mat in families. I have grown a heart of stone. When people die it's yoh okay. I move on. Nothing surpasses that pain. I thank God for as I taught myself to live for Him, my life wasn't so hard to live because He's all I talk

and cry to. I have cried tears. All shall be well.