Hey yall.

An update. I'm home today bc I was cleared as no longer being a danger to myself. I'm hopefully gonna be put into a Behavioral Health facility soon but the options here are nonexistent so I may need to travel to get into one.

In the mean time I painted LOTS today
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Ill be focusing tomorrow on getting out orders & hopefully I'll be able to access messages on Etsy. Still having issues getting into them.

My painting today ran the gamut but I don't wanna bombard night twitter with a bunch of pieces. Suffice to say, I missed it & all of you

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Nonetheless, I appreciate your wonderful msgs. I have a long way to go in getting better but I'm still here.

If you too struggle with severe depression, are having "those" thoughts, please speak to someone & get help. Let me be a lesson. Everytime I shut down I get worse.

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Depression is a liar. It is insidious and will bring you to your knees when you least expect it.. Depression has robbed me of a life worth living so I have to find my footing, my reason, my purpose.

I ve often shared my struggles here bc you guys have been most supportive.

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However this time I didn't.

The last 2 times I spoke about it there was a couple of ppl that got in my head bc they made comments that I speak about it for attention. That fucked me up. It hurts when you reach out & see that. I shut down & was trapped in the darkness. Alone

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Depression is very very real. At my worst, I can't function. I am at war w a brain that wants me dead. The further down you are, the less strength u have to fight it.

Fighting day after day, year after year is a mental prison. In the darkness u can't see an "out."

Be gentle.