if u cant tell i need good vibes and good things bc i am sad and sick of being laid up with this stupid injury and all the stress with it in regards to money and job security i am really trying to avoid a breakdown

like im sorry to be negative a lot and im sorry that i am very aloof and at times even cold. I am really struggling. Work is full time and not easy on my body and an injury like a sprain as bad as mine was has left me feeling scared and hopeless

but more than that i know that the past year has taken a huge toll on all of us including me and i have tried faking it to make it but its starting to wear out and im not able to keep up appearances as easily. ive already suffered two catastrophic breakdowns i really cant do more

I want to be a good friend to my pals, i want to be a likeable appealing person and I want to bring joy to lives not remind everyone of the miseries because i cant cope. Im sorry im not doing a great job in that and im sorry im not the best friend I should be

i know this thread probs sounds weird or guilt trippy but tonal typing isnt my strong suit i promise this is sorrow and genuine pain that I cant be the person i want to be as easily bc of life crushing me into dirt. I still fight and try but i feel i am not doing great