i'm autistic. for me, being autistic has been more traumatic than my ADHD. people in my life made fun of ADHD but actively mocked & discriminated against 'out' autistics. it's never been safe for me to be my autistic self, & i still don't feel able to be entirely open about it.

my trauma that comes alongside my neurodiversity is mine & mine alone to disclose to who & when i choose. i'm not going to expose myself & make myself vulnerable to a v new audience (about a month ago i had <4k followers. the last week especially has been VERY overwhelming)

i'm not going to risk my already very fragile mental health by sharing something incredibly personal and sincere to an audience i'm not familiar with. maybe i shouldn't have posted my thread about adhd the other day but yall forget that impulsivity is a major symptom of ADHD.

it's like the third symptom on the diagnostic criteria. most of my threads are posted as soon as i write them, which is usually soon after i wake up and my meds are kicking in. like i said before, i tweet for me, no one else. i say the kinds of things *i* want to see on my tl.

i want to talk more about other conditions but right now i simply don't have the capacity to be taking risks by venturing out of my comfort zone. my mental health, as many of my long term followers know, has been pretty shocking this year and i'm in maintenance/survival mode

i'm not doing things that make me uncomfortable if i don't need to because the work i'm doing on myself right now is hard enough. i'm working through trauma, i'm finally getting somewhere in therapy, i'm moving house with my toxic family and have mountains of uni work,

i just don't have the space (or time tbh) to sit down & really think about other stuff i want to address - so far i've never really *needed* to think hard about my adhd content bc my adhd has historically been way more visible than everything else & is easier for me to talk about

idrk what this thread is, just some thoughts i've been thinking that i thought might be helpful for me to write down & idk maybe i still feel the need to defend/explain myself (hi trauma response) but i'm trying to combat that anyway. not everyone has to like or agree with me.