very out of character for me but i’m feelin sappy and thinkin about pixel figuring out her gender n stuff

but listen so after like. several months of living with oz and seb and vi and before her relationship with oz got so. bad. she starts realizing that the warmth she feels when she hears seb talk about being trans is sort of.... envy

she starts lookin into it and reading about dysphoria and resonating with it like she didn’t think she would, just because she had never been close with any trans people and didn’t know what it was like

and a few times oz accidentally calls her good girl and she leans into it, reacts well to it so oz does it more often.... they don’t mind praising her when she deserves it....

but god even before pixel was even allowed in the red room and she just suspected oz did something not so legal, like before things get all. bad between them, pixel is still really nervous around them because she loves them so deeply

and she finally works up the courage to ask oz about being trans and what dysphoria is like for them and stuff and oz is SO nice talking to baby trans pixel bc they’re a murderer and a rapist but NOT transphobic or mean or anything ok

and oz like. tells her about how cause seb doesn’t experience dysphoria he’ll tell her something different, but for oz it’s like their skin is constantly burning off and they’re roasting alive but can’t crawl away from their cage of bones and has to suffer with every breath

pixel is like cause. jesus christ.

but they just. are honest with pixel and shes all quiet and stuff and they ask if she wants to be called something else and pixel of course doesn’t know yet/isn’t sure but she just. quietly says she loves when they call her a good girl

and she doesn’t know but oz tells seb because. they tell seb everything and they and seb consciously try to switch up pronouns for her without her realizing

like they’re just chilling and seb goes to the kitchen n asks if pixel wants anything and oz is like!!! get her a bone!!!! and pixel is like

and then eventually vi realizes what they’re doing and asks pixel when they’re alone (which is hilarious bc pixel is horrified of viola and hates being alone with him and expects him to say somethin nasty)

but he asks what her pronouns are and she’s like. why and he’s like “idk. seb and oz call you she or they so i just. wanted to ask so i don’t get it wrong.” and pixel is like. blush. a-any are fine. it’s okay. thank you.

pixel gets more comfy with it and stuff and one night seb forces pixel to go with him to pride night @ the strip club and when he’s getting the little trans sticker to put on himself he puts one on pixel too and she actually cries and he has to drag her to go sit down

yeah..... just pixel being all. gender

OKAY AND. YES I HAVE SAID THAT WHEN PIXEL MENTIONS WANTIN G BOTTOM SURGERY OZ SAYS NO BUT THATS BC OZ LIKES HAVING CONTROL OVER HER BC SHE’S THEIR PROPERTY AND NOT BC THEY DONT RESPECT HER GENDER OKAY. OKAY /j /lh