It’s time to be emotionally vulnerable on the internet

My dermatillomana has gotten really bad lately and it’s been making me super self conscious, so I’m posting these pictures that highlight my scabs in an attempt to reverse-psychology myself into being less ashamed

And honestly? This isn’t even the worst of it. My legs and arms are a mess of scabs, my scalp is covered in them. Every single day I have been fighting a battle against myself in an attempt to not systematically pull out all my hair and turn every imperfection into a nasty wound

I’d been doing pretty good. My eyebrows were kinda starting to fill in, my face and body were mostly scab free, but it feels like I’m back to where I started.
It’s compulsive self destructive behavior and everything about it sucks.

And even though I’m sharing those pictures with the intent of being less self conscious of how my scabs look, they’re honestly a pretty conservative view of how bad it is. The freckles and warm lighting help to mask a lot of the smaller scabs and general inflamed redness.

Here are some older pictures of me with dermatillomania scabs. A lot of these have turned into scars. My face is ROUGH. I wish I wasn’t so self conscious about it, because it only heightens my anxiety and furthers the picking.

Ok, I kinda forgot where this thread was going, but

TLDR:
I compulsively pick at my skin and pull out my hair and it makes me extremely self conscious and I wish it didn’t. Also, I’ve been dealing with it for years and I am covered in scabs and scars.