“I’m detransitioning because I want people to be nice to me” isn’t the full story but it’s a pretty huge part of it
If you think that’s sad... yeah I agree it is lol life is sad. 🤷🏻‍♂️
I’ve been showing up to work as a guy for about 3 weeks now and the difference in how I’m treated is palpable lol customers are a lot nicer to me and I have a much, much easier time interacting with people and just focusing on my job lmao it’s crazy.
And frankly the way I was treated in my last “”relationship”” is something I never want to experience again that I do very much associate with my transness. Which isn’t to say I’m naive enough to think gay men never experience abuse or harm from their partners BUT...
I do know if I wasn’t a trans woman I wouldn’t have taken it the way I did. Being a trans woman who dates men leads to a mindset of scarcity. A guy being attracted to me and not being ashamed of it feels like an exceptional feat of bravery. I can’t deal with that power dynamic.
I don’t want to be in this mindset where I’m basically forced to accept scraps because girls like me never get to have anything better. I would have stopped entertaining that person so much sooner if I’d felt like I had other options.
I’m sick of feeling like I’m not sexually or romantically viable to anybody and that I’m fundamentally unlovable because I’m a trans woman. I don’t want to live like that anymore. I want to be loved and to feel safe and to experience things other people get to take for granted.
Like I said there’s like a million reasons why I’m doing this so I don’t want to be chalking it up to just this one thing or the way one person treated me but I do want to be clear that it’s a pretty major part of why and I did want to talk about it.
You’re still allowed to be happy for me because I am ultimately doing what I want and this does feel like a means of taking my power back in a way so there are positive elements of this but I just wanted to be clear that it also is uhhh pretty sad lol
I’ve been on Grindr and tinder as a gay man for a few weeks now and dating and relationships already feel like something I can be a thousand times more optimistic about than I ever could as a trans woman. That is very shitty but it’s the world we live in lol
People quote tweeting this on private are weird and creepy to me
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