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Writer ConfessionWhen I first joined twitter, I subscribed to the concept that my engagement MUST be better than other writers.
I compared numbers consistently - whether likes, RTs, comments or followers, I was always easily jealous of other writers who'd been here longer-
- than me, with large followings and hype teams of their own when it came to updates or tweets on their accounts.
I was insanely competitive, and wanted more. It made me entertain ugly thoughts, some of which I expressed both here and in private, all of which still haunt me now.
I was insanely competitive, and wanted more. It made me entertain ugly thoughts, some of which I expressed both here and in private, all of which still haunt me now.
I felt disregarded all the time, even insulted, when the big accounts I followed didn't interact with me.
I don't know when, but I gradually realised how horrible my mind was becoming, and how dark I made my writing journey, especially when it came to other writers and creators.
I don't know when, but I gradually realised how horrible my mind was becoming, and how dark I made my writing journey, especially when it came to other writers and creators.
Hypocritical, perhaps.
I advocated for kindness, for understanding, urging everyone to be gentle with creators, with themselves, but the truth is I think I was tweeting all those to convince MYSELF that I didn't need to be that person.
The point is - and I definitely digressed-
I advocated for kindness, for understanding, urging everyone to be gentle with creators, with themselves, but the truth is I think I was tweeting all those to convince MYSELF that I didn't need to be that person.
The point is - and I definitely digressed-
- is that I'm probably not as kind or unassuming as I present myself to ya'll, on most days.
I no longer compare myself to other writers as much as I used to, simply because I'd rather not waste time being that person. I just wanna write, and create stories (for myself mostly).
I no longer compare myself to other writers as much as I used to, simply because I'd rather not waste time being that person. I just wanna write, and create stories (for myself mostly).
TLDR; I might not a good person, but I'm fucking trying.
So let's all just fucking try together, yeah? I'm glad you're all here with me, and I hope you continue to bear with this sometimes-asshole-writer on this bird app.
Here's to us, all trying to not be assholes, together.
So let's all just fucking try together, yeah? I'm glad you're all here with me, and I hope you continue to bear with this sometimes-asshole-writer on this bird app.
Here's to us, all trying to not be assholes, together.
