When I first joined twitter, I subscribed to the concept that my engagement MUST be better than other writers.
I compared numbers consistently - whether likes, RTs, comments or followers, I was always easily jealous of other writers who& #39;d been here longer-
- than me, with large followings and hype teams of their own when it came to updates or tweets on their accounts.
I was insanely competitive, and wanted more. It made me entertain ugly thoughts, some of which I expressed both here and in private, all of which still haunt me now.
I was insanely competitive, and wanted more. It made me entertain ugly thoughts, some of which I expressed both here and in private, all of which still haunt me now.
I felt disregarded all the time, even insulted, when the big accounts I followed didn& #39;t interact with me.
I don& #39;t know when, but I gradually realised how horrible my mind was becoming, and how dark I made my writing journey, especially when it came to other writers and creators.
I don& #39;t know when, but I gradually realised how horrible my mind was becoming, and how dark I made my writing journey, especially when it came to other writers and creators.
Hypocritical, perhaps.
I advocated for kindness, for understanding, urging everyone to be gentle with creators, with themselves, but the truth is I think I was tweeting all those to convince MYSELF that I didn& #39;t need to be that person.
The point is - and I definitely digressed-
I advocated for kindness, for understanding, urging everyone to be gentle with creators, with themselves, but the truth is I think I was tweeting all those to convince MYSELF that I didn& #39;t need to be that person.
The point is - and I definitely digressed-