So...over the years, I've been growing a lot of self doubt in my talent as not just an artist, but as a graphic designer. It's not because I'm never motivated to try something new or go back and fix anything. But rather, it's my doubt that no one seems to want to give me a chance

A little over a week ago, I got an email back from a company whom I will keep anonymous for this thread concerning an application for a graphic design internship. Keep in mind for context that I have graduated with a BA in Arts a little under a year ago

Unfortunately, the company had come back rejecting my application for the internship. The reason? They were looking for better qualifying candidates. You tell me that someone with 4 years experience does not qualify for a position such as this.

There were more like this, but this was the more recent one. As such, I've only been getting by with a basic job and a constant struggle to afford my own place. All the while, not a single art opportunity has been found or offered to me, and it's been hurting my self-esteem

It honestly makes me feel like the four years I've spent in college, working with various design software and earning my bachelors, meant nothing so far. Like I'm just so insignificant compared to the more popular and experienced artists out there.

That's part of the reason why I want to become a freelancer. Because to me, it feels like the one position where my degree actually matters, and that people can actually see what I'm capable of doing. But, with hardly anyone giving me a chance, it's taken a toll on my self-esteem

Really, the only thing keeping me trying is the support I get from friends and family. Even still, it really hasn't benefited yet until I find someone that's willing to give me, a young graphic designer, a chance to apply myself out in the world.

Sorry if this whole thread was extremely long, but this was something that's been bothering me for a while, and I honestly felt like getting it out there.