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—- a thread on 2019 & why dream means so much to me . ( and why, in my opinion, he deserves so much support and love ).
this thread contains mentions of trauma, sh and other important topics!
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this thread contains mentions of trauma, sh and other important topics!
[ DO NOT PRIVQRT THIS. ]
so i kind of have to start off with an introduction to who i actually am. for those of you who haven’t ever followed me or read any of my content, i’m kier. i’m 19, neurodivergent, nonbinary and have been a part of mcyt twitter since early 2019, when i originally started +
this account for the trio. at the time i made fanart, hosted giveaways, wrote the first royalty au fanfic that spawned groupchats and theories and such and advocated for important issues. back then the mcyt community was very, VERY small. there were +
literally a handful of accounts. people had trouble getting past like twenty followers. so when i hit 1k, i was considered one of the “bigger” accounts in the community! a lot of this was due to my fic writing. i took a break from twitter on and off from about mid 2020 to +
the start of 2021 to work on my mental health.
at the time, i was not a good person. i was insufferable to a lot of people i’m sure. i engaged in drama, i trauma dumped, i was overall miserable and made everyone else know about it. i had controversial opinions and +
at the time, i was not a good person. i was insufferable to a lot of people i’m sure. i engaged in drama, i trauma dumped, i was overall miserable and made everyone else know about it. i had controversial opinions and +
an arrogant attitude to go with it. i took a LOT of my validation and self esteem from what people thought of me online. in short, i must have been irritating to be friends with & thats why i won’t ever blame anyone around that time for unfollowing or blocking me.
anyway, i was pretty unstable. in hindsight, at the time i had undiagnosed and unsupported autism, ocd, depression and anxiety. i was able to get professionally dxed in late 2019, which i believe DID help me.
but prior to that, a lot of the people who helped me were +
but prior to that, a lot of the people who helped me were +
people i’d met online. my childhood was rough. i don’t like talking about it and i can’t go into details, but i have a lot of trauma from that time in my life. subsequently, i find it difficult to talk to or trust people.
back then, dream wasn’t a well known creator by any +
back then, dream wasn’t a well known creator by any +
means. i was there when he hit 100k, and when he hit 200k. for proof, here’s cropped pictures of me in the 200k merch.
i started doing a small, daily thing where i’d tweet @ dream something simple every morning when i woke up. it’d usually just be something like ‘ily’ or ‘i hope u have a good day’. a lot of times he’d take the time to like the tweet or reply. it meant a lot to me even before +
everything got rough for me.
i started messaging his main twitter about random things, and he’d often reply or participate in groupchats we had added him to ( the most notable being the Iconics gc ). he was always very sweet to me. i always appreciated it. +
i started messaging his main twitter about random things, and he’d often reply or participate in groupchats we had added him to ( the most notable being the Iconics gc ). he was always very sweet to me. i always appreciated it. +
things hit the fan for me in mid 2019. i had a very bad relationship, suffered a very significant loss and struggled mentally as i was an undiagnosed, mentally ill teenager in a very bad home situation. and because i had very few friends, i’d often vent to dream in dms. +
he gave me a LOT of advice over that year, even going so far as to add me on discord when i was having a very bad time on twitter and couldn’t handle being here any longer. even though i was just one person, i did consider him a sort of friend ( despite the fact we probably +
weren’t ). regardless, he really helped me out when he absolutely didn’t have to. he’d send reassuring or kind messages if i came to him upset about life, or offered advice when he wasn’t busy and had time to. it’s advice i took to heart and STILL try to live by to this day. +
i don’t feel comfortable sharing dms with creators as they’re people just like us and deserve to have their boundaries and privacy respected, so i won’t be sharing exactly what was said. but it meant a LOT to me at the time and honestly? it still does.
i was one person. one person he didn’t know that well. and yet he still consistently went out of his way to listen to me, even though i’m certain he was very busy. these days he’s likely even busier, but i will always be fond of him personally because of my past experiences. +
that isn’t to say he hasn’t said or done stupid things in the past. even back in 2019. i can only speak from my personal experience, and what i can say from that is that he’s one of the kindest people i’ve spoken to, and does deserve the fanbase he has and the success +
he’s gotten. i know i’ll never be able to be a creator who changes people’s lives that way, but i know that he personally changed mine. i don’t think i can ever really just enjoy the content, because i have a wealth of memories from 2019 and such. but i know i will always +
be fond of him and hope for the best for him. and though people have valid reasons to dislike him i’m sure, i know mine won’t change. i am someone who wouldn’t be here today if it hadn’t been for him.
and for that i am very, very grateful.
and for that i am very, very grateful.
i’m not going to tag him in this myself bc i know its a bit of an info dump but i’ve seen a lot of dream neg on my tl and i just wanted to say my own piece.
i love this community. it has truly changed my life & changed me as a person. thank you. all of you.
i love this community. it has truly changed my life & changed me as a person. thank you. all of you.
