ββ so, i can't seem to fast. i'm going back to the diet i was on when i was losing ten pounds a month. all i do is hold off on eating for as long as possible, drink a shit ton of water, exercise and stay at or below 800 calories. let's go.
[ april 7 ]
weighed in at 215.0 which is surprising considering i ate 2 hotteok, a ring pop, 5 mandu and like 300 calories worth of rice yesterday. i'm up 4.8 lbs from my lowest weight, and i'm determined to exceed it.
weighed in at 215.0 which is surprising considering i ate 2 hotteok, a ring pop, 5 mandu and like 300 calories worth of rice yesterday. i'm up 4.8 lbs from my lowest weight, and i'm determined to exceed it.
almost three mile walk with nala the dog done! it was 2.83 but my phone was gonna die :c ended up burning 374 though, which is everything i've had so far plus my preplanned lunch c:
aight, i'm home from my shift. feeling a lil woozy bc of the vaccine, so i'm gonna eat dinner even though it's super late. i'm at 17.6k steps as of rn and i'm probably not gonna push for 18k just because i feel exhausted. here are my totals from today.
[ april 8 ]
weighed in at 212.8 when i finally managed to drag myself out of bed to weigh in. i feel like straight ass right now. most definitely not going to exercise today. i really just wanna eat pad thai from my favorite thai place.
weighed in at 212.8 when i finally managed to drag myself out of bed to weigh in. i feel like straight ass right now. most definitely not going to exercise today. i really just wanna eat pad thai from my favorite thai place.
had a cup of basmati and some seaweed my dad forced me to eat. it was yummy but i wasn't hungry so i'm a little bit bummed. i think i might try to sleep for the rest of the day to avoid eating. my bmr is only about 1700 and i don't wanna eat too close to half of that.
[ april 9 ]
weighed in at 213.2 yesterday which isn't horrid all things considered. i was super dehydrated when i took my final weight yesterday and i ate late at night last night. taking my first weight from yesterday morning to my first weight today, it's still -1.4.
weighed in at 213.2 yesterday which isn't horrid all things considered. i was super dehydrated when i took my final weight yesterday and i ate late at night last night. taking my first weight from yesterday morning to my first weight today, it's still -1.4.
i'm gonna go get my starbucks order and do a short walk before my shift today. i've gotta pack my lunch and dinner, too. maybe i'll have peanut noodles?
my dad shamed me for something i was eating so when i get off work we finna jog six miles baby!! wish i could purge but i'm on the clock!!
[ april 11 ]
weighed in at 213 straight today. feeling exhausted, but it's probably just dehydration. i need to workout, study and twist my hair today but i'n dragging.
weighed in at 213 straight today. feeling exhausted, but it's probably just dehydration. i need to workout, study and twist my hair today but i'n dragging.
planned my omad and she's less than 700 calories. i'm so hype bc it's one of my fave foods too (sourdough grilled cheese w tomato + green onion)
omad done! y'all i might watch aot and take a nap i am very sleepy
[ april 12 ]
weighed in back at my lowest weight. i'm now 10 lbs away from my weight in high school and 11 lbs away from breaking back into the 100s. all i've gotta do is stay focused.
weighed in back at my lowest weight. i'm now 10 lbs away from my weight in high school and 11 lbs away from breaking back into the 100s. all i've gotta do is stay focused.
forgot to update all day but i went for an almost 4 mile walk in my fave park and had some 280 cal ramen when i got home! here's some pics of my view c:
[ april 13 ]
weighed in at 210.0 so tomorrow, if i act right, i should finally drop out of the 210s!! i'm really excited; i haven't weighed this little since high school.
weighed in at 210.0 so tomorrow, if i act right, i should finally drop out of the 210s!! i'm really excited; i haven't weighed this little since high school.
[ april 14 ]
i need to start tracking more earnestly. i didn't hit my step goal yesterday bc i went to bed so early and i also didn't exercise. i feel very heavy; idk if i lost anything.
i need to start tracking more earnestly. i didn't hit my step goal yesterday bc i went to bed so early and i also didn't exercise. i feel very heavy; idk if i lost anything.
i gained 1.2 lbs; contemplating jumping off a bridge /j
hoping it's water weight since i spent a lot of the day yesterday rehydrating after a dry spell.
hoping it's water weight since i spent a lot of the day yesterday rehydrating after a dry spell.
i'm trying omad today, so i just need to fast til i go to sleep. i hope i can do it! it's all about determination.
so, i made it home and into bed without binging! gonna go write and fall asleep., here's hoping i'm 209 tomorrow.
[ april 15 ]
lost 1.4 lbs and weighed in this morning at 209.8 which means i've officially surpassed my lw! also, my period started this morning which means i'm probably gonna lose weight in fluids tomorrow too.
lost 1.4 lbs and weighed in this morning at 209.8 which means i've officially surpassed my lw! also, my period started this morning which means i'm probably gonna lose weight in fluids tomorrow too.
went to the bathroom and reweighed in at 209.0 c:
[ april 17 ]
so, the period cravings got me. i binged yesterday, so i'm not gonna weigh today. i'm gonna do my best to eat well, though! tomorrow is my pad thai omad day so i really need to get it together.
so, the period cravings got me. i binged yesterday, so i'm not gonna weigh today. i'm gonna do my best to eat well, though! tomorrow is my pad thai omad day so i really need to get it together.
[ april 20 ]
didn't weigh, but i fasted for 20 hours, then omaded a vegan sloppy and seasoned fries. gonna do a night weigh in a second to hurt my own feelings.
didn't weigh, but i fasted for 20 hours, then omaded a vegan sloppy and seasoned fries. gonna do a night weigh in a second to hurt my own feelings.
214.4 because i'm a pig. i haven't been counting calories and weighing regularly, which is why this happened.
i lapsed on self-care also, so i took a shower and now i'm twisting my hair c:
aight my hair is done n i'm all clean so i'm gonna pop a sleep aid n go dream about eren luv u all gn
[ april 21 ]
holy shit those sleeping pills are kicking my ass still, i feel so tired. i managed to sleep past five uninterrupted and past six all together, though, so that's good. gonna go weigh.
holy shit those sleeping pills are kicking my ass still, i feel so tired. i managed to sleep past five uninterrupted and past six all together, though, so that's good. gonna go weigh.
weighed in at 211.2 which is bad, but not nearly as bad as i was expecting. gonna go get my starbucks order and clean my room this morning.
used up all my cals, so i'll be fasting til tomorrow c:
[ april 22 ]
weighed in at 209.6 this morning, which is my lowest recorded initial weight. the only time i've been lower than this is on the 8th (?) when i was super sick and weighed in at 209 even. gonna wait til later to eat and then have all my cals for the day at once.
weighed in at 209.6 this morning, which is my lowest recorded initial weight. the only time i've been lower than this is on the 8th (?) when i was super sick and weighed in at 209 even. gonna wait til later to eat and then have all my cals for the day at once.
home from work and my mom decided to start emotionally abusing me again but!! on a positive note, i didn't feel the urge to binge or comfort eat, so my fast isn't broken!
AYE MY NIGHT WEIGHT IS .2 LOWER THAN THIS MORNING'S WEIGHT!!! hoping i move into a new number tomorrow c:
[ april 23 ]
weighed in this morning at 208.0. from this point on, every time i lose weight, i'll be hitting a new lowest weight, which is exciting. 8.1 lbs til i'm in the hundreds for the first time in almost seven years.
weighed in this morning at 208.0. from this point on, every time i lose weight, i'll be hitting a new lowest weight, which is exciting. 8.1 lbs til i'm in the hundreds for the first time in almost seven years.
think my stomach is shrinking! i couldn't even finish all my food this morning, even though it was the same as yesterday's. i work another 9 hour shift today, so all i gotta do is fast til i go to sleep!
night weight is 208.8. it's less than a pound up from this morning but i feel nervous for some reason? idk, i've been fasting like i should and i know i should trust the process but if i plateau tomorrow i'm gonna have a fit.
[ april 24 ]
207.6 this morning! a little disappointed that there's only a .4 change from yesterday morning, but i still went into a new number! broke my fast at 23 hours and had couscous, vegan teriyaki and some shoestring potatoes. all in all, i think it was around 900?
207.6 this morning! a little disappointed that there's only a .4 change from yesterday morning, but i still went into a new number! broke my fast at 23 hours and had couscous, vegan teriyaki and some shoestring potatoes. all in all, i think it was around 900?
anyway, i started my daily fast again! i have a short shift today so i'll be home at dinner time. a little nervous about my resistance, but i'll go on a walk to avoid my family.
it's pouring so no walk. night weight was 208.8. i'm not gonna pad thai omad tomorrow, just to be safe because i really wanna get below 205 as soon as possible. very nervous that i'm not gonna lose tomorrow.
[ april 25 ]
i'm stupid so i ate last night. one small veggie soft taco, like 50gs of bbq chips, two mega oreos, 50gs of hot cheetos and a thing of seaweed. it wasn't a binge, but i'm still disappointed. i'll be luck if i'm still below 210.
i'm stupid so i ate last night. one small veggie soft taco, like 50gs of bbq chips, two mega oreos, 50gs of hot cheetos and a thing of seaweed. it wasn't a binge, but i'm still disappointed. i'll be luck if i'm still below 210.
i'm 208.0 which is still better than i deserve. my limit is 800 and i have to stick to that no matter what.
[ april 26 ]
206.8 today! happy i went into a new number. maybe if i work hard today i can get to 205.9 by tomorrow? it might be a stretch, but i'll exercise and drink water and see what happens.
206.8 today! happy i went into a new number. maybe if i work hard today i can get to 205.9 by tomorrow? it might be a stretch, but i'll exercise and drink water and see what happens.
[ april 27 ]
206.6 today bc i was dumb and waited until 8 pm to eat dinner. but! i still lost and that's the important thing. gonna try to fast until i'm down with work today.
206.6 today bc i was dumb and waited until 8 pm to eat dinner. but! i still lost and that's the important thing. gonna try to fast until i'm down with work today.
dinner is done! and i fasted through work! still a lil hungry but i'm only gonna have water for the rest of the day. i'm going to watch my sister graduate on sunday and i wanna be below 205 by then.
[ april 28 ]
I WEIGH 205.8!!!! I'M REALLY GETTING THERE!!
I WEIGH 205.8!!!! I'M REALLY GETTING THERE!!
today wasn't great. probs didn't eat above my bmr but i just feel kinda weird? idk, i don't like eating through the day. i like omading but i didn't today. gonna take lax when i get home.
kay so i managed to shit so maybe no lax?? i'm just gonna chug water for the rest of the night and do my best to stay awake to get some shit done
kay so we had a lil light binge but i popped some lax so we good hahaha this is fine
[ APRIL 29]
WOKE UP AT 204.8 BC IM GOD'S FAVORITE CHILD!!! midnight binges can't stop me. if i hadn't eaten, i'd probs be even lighter but omg, i'm below 205!!!!
WOKE UP AT 204.8 BC IM GOD'S FAVORITE CHILD!!! midnight binges can't stop me. if i hadn't eaten, i'd probs be even lighter but omg, i'm below 205!!!!
[ april 30 ]
today's the last day of this thread. i'm waiting for my lax to kick in before i do my final weigh of the morning, but right now i'm sitting at 205.4 bc i ate after work last night like a stupid bitch
today's the last day of this thread. i'm waiting for my lax to kick in before i do my final weigh of the morning, but right now i'm sitting at 205.4 bc i ate after work last night like a stupid bitch