When it comes to being places, growing up, we were NEVER on time. My mom would always have us late asf, and then in an already chaotic house, shit would just be even more chaotic
Itād be extremely overwhelming and angering honestly. So the whole process would just be rushed asf and overwhelming. Thinking back to any milestones (graduations, proms) I can literally remember how overwhelmed and stressed I was, on top of my anxiety. It was so bad.
When it comes to timed things, I realize I do better when I can choose my own time (appointments) vs having a time to get ready by. I get overwhelmed and stressed extremely easily, especially when Iām getting ready at home
When I do have a timeframe that isnāt too strict, I appreciate it because I get to truly enjoy my process of getting ready, which I never really had the luxury of doing growing up. I do feel bad though when I get so caught up in it that I end up lessening my time w who Iām seeing
Plus it doesnāt help that even when I think Iām ready and happy asf bc Iām on time, I come out my room and my mom makes a comment. Next thing you know Iām back in the room trying to fix things, doubting my look, now Iām cutting it close to time and Iām stressed / overwhelmed