You know what ABA gave me? Immense guilt every time I give myself a “reward” without completing a task first. And by rewards I mean things like going to the bathroom, eating, doing anything other than keeping my body Very Still.

What ABA gave me? As a child I developed the warped inner voice of a child psychologist before I developed my own inner voice. I still can’t get rid of it.

What ABA gave me? A susceptibility to sexual trauma because I had no clue what was okay & I’d been trained to believe others before myself.

What ABA gave me? Constant self doubt. Needing to ask permission for everything. I don’t know how to impress upon people that ABA’s goal is to erase the child - erase the self - and it works.

Hey! Are you reading this? Go check out my latest tweets and boost autistic joy too. Imo that’s way more helpful that retweeting my trauma.