2020 is almost over and I feel I have something to get off my chest: I didn& #39;t get better. I didn& #39;t get healthier in mind or body. I didn& #39;t create, I didn& #39;t grow, and I didn& #39;t accomplish. It& #39;s fair to say I& #39;m less together than I was this time last year by almost every metric.
But I DID survive. and you know what? I& #39;m happy to come to terms with that. Survival is absolutely enough. I& #39;m learning to be more than good with that and I feel like you should be too. Seriously, well fucking done.
I& #39;ve many friends who& #39;ve made huge strides. Solitude has given them time to accomplish goals of self improvement, creative output, or career advancement. Sometimes all three. THANK THE GODS. We& #39;re going to be relying on healthy people in the months ahead.
Some friends have dealt with so much. Loss of health, loss of family. Some have slipped back into bad habits, or lost employment. And these experiences just WRECK you. I worry for friends in film, games, STEM, public service. Hell, friends who lost jobs at Disneyland. it& #39;s awful.
Almost universally, these amazing people beat themselves up for lamenting their own pain when so many others are doing so much worse. It so hard for us to remember that neither success nor failure are a contest. Most people can& #39;t even agree on how to measure these concepts.
As for next year; I& #39;ve always hated the metaphor of the light at the end of the tunnel. Most change I& #39;ve experienced in my life didn& #39;t happen in a day, and when it did it was usually less life altering then the change that took months.