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/tolerate it tskym fic/
(angst)
tadashi isn& #39;t stupid. he knows he likes kei more than kei likes him. in fact, he& #39;s positive kei doest love him. he hasn& #39;t for a long time or maybe he never had. tadashi still gets butterflies in his stomach when he sees kei.
(angst)
tadashi isn& #39;t stupid. he knows he likes kei more than kei likes him. in fact, he& #39;s positive kei doest love him. he hasn& #39;t for a long time or maybe he never had. tadashi still gets butterflies in his stomach when he sees kei.
he& #39;s awed by the man he has grown to love. he has watched kei fill in and become a smart scientist and a professional volleyball. tadashi goes to every game, he sits in the crowd cheering. he is proud of his boyfriend but some part of him knows he barley has the right
to call this man his lover. kei greets him with small nods after the games while his team mates hug and kiss their partners. tadashi has received plenty of pitiful looks from the other players and he is good at pretending he doesn& #39;t see them
kei usually comes home late after the games. way later than the bars close. but tadashi is always there when the door opens, happy to take kei& #39;s bag and give him a kiss. kei offers little more than a warm hand on his waist as greeting
tadashi knows kei doesn& #39;t love him. he can feel the distance when they& #39;re holding hands and the coldness when they& #39;re pressed in bed together. but he doesn& #39;t stop trying. sometimes he wonders where he went wrong.
when they were friends in high school kei would look at him like he had strung the stars. now kei looks at him with little more interest than a rock on the street. tadashi always prepares breakfast, he gives kei kisses in the morning,
he grins happily at him and says "tsukki" with as much love as he can muster. he is dying inside because the man he loves does not have a care for him. if he did, he would have ended their relationship long ago. tadashi is holding on to something and can& #39;t cut the string himself
he wishes kei would. sometimes he pictures himself leaving without saying anything. he imagines kei would be heart broken if he found tadashi& #39;s drawer empty but in his darkest thoughts, he knows kei wouldn& #39;t even raise an eyebrow. perhaps he& #39;d even be happy
tadashi doesn& #39;t leave though. he falls asleep next to kei and prays that one day he will wake up and kei will look at him like he is the only man in the world. it only ever happens in his dreams
