tw: death

My uncle passed away recently. He died from cancer.

I’m okay. We’re not close enough for me to feel a sense of loss.

What I feel instead is relief that he is finally free from pain and suffering, gratitude for his kindness to my 4th Aunt, and extremely drained instead.

You see, my 4th aunt (who is my mum’s sister) has been hiding his illness for quite a while now. Only my mum knows.

It is a burden shared between sisters, but also one that my mum often shares with me too. Secrets, worries, they’re all very draining.

Death is a heavy topic to share, Idk, it just doesn’t feel right esp when it feels like everything’s a mess nowadays and everyone has their own fish to fry?

Probably because I don’t think I want or need to be comforted? It just sucks, that’s all.

It’s not something I can talk in main either coz my cousin is following me there. I love her, but some family secrets are meant to be guarded.

I am rarely comfortable sharing personal stuff, too, nor do I want to be a downer in TL. Just this once, I’d like to unload this here.

These days I’ve been feeling so drained that I am slow with interactions, but I’ve also been uplifted by good art and moot interactions. I feel appreciative of that.

Pretty soon, this thread will be buried under mass nsfw RTs. Like all bad moments, this too shall pass.