cw // vent
so i looked more into it and
more lonely kids often use we / you because they identify their head as separate to how they identify themselves
which honestly, yeah. my head is a lot different than how i portray myself to everyone else --

i dont think id ever be able to express my head "person" outwards because.. its a lot of trauma. when i begin to open that ""person"" up to people, a lot of them get scared or even overwhelmed so i stop. its why i cant just "go to therapy"; i'll lie about my experiences.

ive never told one person everything thats happened to me. because its a lot. even when i think about it, i get overwhelmed. so ... i guess thats why i use plural for myself sometimes?

i dont even think i could sit and list everything off because it gets overwhelming, but at the same time i cant just let it.. sit. it gets overwhelming for me? which is when i break and tell people.