Sooooo, I& #39;m feeling a bit like this-

I& #39;m sitting on a bench in a park. Kids are playing, couples are roaming around, uncle aunties are doing their yoga, meditation thingy. And I& #39;m just sitting looking at their happy faces. I feel a bit happy for them. Next moment, there is...

this inexplicable dread about my future. Whether I& #39;ll get to experience what they are experiencing right now. And the answer feels scary. So, I just try to shrug my brain off and try to focus on something else.

Although, once a thought has entered my mind, it doesn& #39;t go.

Not that easily anyway. So, I stand up and am walking around in that park hoping to get distracted and failing rather badly at it.

Aaaaaaaaand that& #39;s pretty much it I guess.
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