Desire is a powerful, intoxicating force. We let ourselves be blinded by what we want.

We assume we know better, are quicker at making decisions or are righteous in what we want. What we want can come ratified by logic, social approval, even wisdom. None of them cancel the right to choose. Including the right to make mistakes & to be confused.

Choice is a complex navigation of emotion, impulse, opportunity & other social rules. In a basic world, we'd all communicate in simple YESes and NOs. But most life choices are not that binary.

A firm yes or no needs us to understand ourselves perfectly in that moment. Most of us are not able to do that immediately. We are not always clear what we want & how much we want it, how we want it.

Getting what one wants often has to do with dealing with other people's choices. Other people's ambivalence usually frustrates me. I hate to feeling confused by mixed signals. Then I remember how often I'm not able to express boundaries myself.

We fear that we will never get what we want. Impatience is always a sign of that. Is what we want worth the toll we pay? I find myself asking if I would want anything that wasn't freely, willingly given.

I know how corrosive resentment is. It is a given in any situation that didn't have all people fully on board. Is getting anything worth taking that on?

No. I would not want to go anywhere I'm not wholeheartedly welcome. It's too humiliating & hurtful to recognise that lack of welcome in another's eyes. It cannot be hidden. Nothing is worth that. This isn't ego, it's respect for the self & the other.

It doesn't take a big personality or fancy speech to express enthusiasm. Human beings manage to convey it in a variety of ways & also understand it. I say it's worth waiting for.

This isn't about villifying desire. It's human to want. The real question is in whether you're defined by what you seek or by how you receive it.

This thread is called ENTHUSIASTICALLY YES and is also an Instagram post here:

https://www.instagram.com/p/CIAhUmOpWRt/?igshid=167zcbmjz05im